isn't it funny how a couple of words can change everything?...
Wow..... i just read over my last post and after some news from a friend (thanks muchly for looking out for me xoxo) i realised just how angry i was.... giving people a chance to explain does wonders sometimes and altho all this is sooooooooooo not over, last night was the first time in a couple of months that i actually got a good nights sleep.... which was weird bcos after hearing what i did, i have lots to think about only now im not so paranoid about it.... i've decided that memories sumtimes don't serve you very well and after a long time with only memories its realy hard not to harbour sum ill feelings...there are still a lot of things i need to get off of my chest and one of these days i am going to have to do the scariest thing in the world and talk about it but for now... i mean right this very minute... im a lot more relaxed and content and less "i hate the world" then i have been in awhile lol..even tho it's turned out that what i have tried to do to remove sum people from the situation didnt work...they assure me "they can handle it" and i think i can see now that one day... don't know when but hopefully one day i will be able to go to sleep at night not feeling the mixture of guilt/regret/sadness that i have been for a while now....
thanks to the people who have made this possible...you will never really be able to grasp just how much this has and will help....
OHHHHHHHHHHH and before i go... am so excited about NEXT tonight!! am soooooooooooo looking forward to getting sloshed again and not having to work drunk tomoro!
<3 you all heaps!
~*~husseybum~*~
thanks to the people who have made this possible...you will never really be able to grasp just how much this has and will help....
OHHHHHHHHHHH and before i go... am so excited about NEXT tonight!! am soooooooooooo looking forward to getting sloshed again and not having to work drunk tomoro!
<3 you all heaps!
~*~husseybum~*~