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I realized something that I never actually thought about before.
I was thinking yesterday all day and it kinda just hit me.
Since me and Jav got together, I've always just inda felt like this was IT. I felt like it was just natural that I'd be with him forever. I didn't even question it. But I realized that just because I'm really close to him and I love him and his family doesn't necessarily mean that we will be together forever.
I just kinda felt like I knew that we'd get married and have kids one day. I was in no hurry cause I felt like I knew it would happen.
But what if it doesn't happen?
I'm not in school and I rely on him for everything and what if we aren't? haha I have nothing I didn't prepare myself....
silly me.
I was thinking yesterday all day and it kinda just hit me.
Since me and Jav got together, I've always just inda felt like this was IT. I felt like it was just natural that I'd be with him forever. I didn't even question it. But I realized that just because I'm really close to him and I love him and his family doesn't necessarily mean that we will be together forever.
I just kinda felt like I knew that we'd get married and have kids one day. I was in no hurry cause I felt like I knew it would happen.
But what if it doesn't happen?
I'm not in school and I rely on him for everything and what if we aren't? haha I have nothing I didn't prepare myself....
silly me.