Undeadroadtrip App
I. PLAYER INFORMATION
Name: Smurf
Are you over the age of 16: Yep
LiveJournal: water_smurf
E-MAIL: Aquamarine.from.ocean@gmail.com
AIM: smurfheartstrong
II. CHARACTER INFORMATION
Character Name: Alessa Gillespie
Canon: Silent Hill
Timeline: Right before the original Silent Hill video game, a little under seven years after Silent Hill Origins.
History: Alessa and her mother are part of a cult called The Order, and before Alessa was born, The Order had a long history of kidnapping little girls and attempting to impregnate them with God (according to the Order, God had died a long time ago and, when She was reborn, She would usher everyone into Paradise). All the girls died either during the ceremony or soon afterwards.
There’s no mention of Alessa’s father, but it’s theorized that her mother, Dahlia, and a local doctor, Kaufmann, made a deal to get Dahlia pregnant and use the child to harvest God’s power, so Kaufmann could be her biological father.
Alessa was born with power that’s never fully explained. She was telekinetic and had the ability to make people die just by wishing for it, and the powers were evident enough to lead to her being called a witch at school and getting bullied. She was abused by Dahlia (partially because Dahlia’s absolutely nuts and partially because, for a religious ritual, Alessa had to be in as much pain as possible), abused by her classmates, and ignored by the school authorities, even when it was obvious how awfully people treated her. The only person she was ever friends with was a fellow abuse victim named Claudia, whose family also belonged to The Order. She thought of Claudia as her little sister.
When she was seven, her mother carried out the ritual to impregnate her with God, which involved lying her on the ground in the middle of a lot of cult symbols, then setting the house on fire. In the middle of the ritual, Alessa realized the true nature of God (God was in fact the source of all suffering and, if born, would basically damn the entire world to hell) and summoned a trucker, Travis, who happened to be driving by. Travis sees the burning house and breaks in, fighting through the flames to find Alessa, by now distinctly resembling human-shaped charcoal. Alessa told him to let her burn, probably because she would die and God would die with her, but Travis refused and carried her out of the house, thus kicking off the events of the Silent Hill: Origins game.
Travis fell unconscious by smoke inhalation and Dahlia came back to take Alessa to the hospital where Kaufmann worked. Kaufmann arranged for Alessa to be kept in secret and told the world that she had died. The only non-cult member to know about Alessa’s presence was her waiting nurse, Lisa Garland, who was forced to take care of Alessa quietly because she was addicted to drugs only Kaufmann could hook her up with. The experience drove Lisa insane, but Alessa viewed Lisa’s daily duties as genuine kindness and love to the point where she takes an imprint of Lisa into the world she creates, but we’re not at that part yet.
Alessa used astral projection to lead Travis into finding a cult artifact that helped focus her power and bring it to her, all the while forcing him to face the horrible things that happened in his childhood. When he used the artifact on her, she split her soul in half, putting the innocent half in a newborn baby, and her astral projection left the baby on the side of the road where a man and his wife find it. She released Travis because there was nothing more he could do, but kept alive by a ritual her mother had performed, she stayed in that sickroom, tended to by the increasingly unhinged Lisa and in constant pain as the embryo inside of her fed and grew from her pain, suffering, and hatred. She stayed there for seven years and eventually came to wish for death, but she kept fighting nonetheless, and she focused on mastering her power until she was able to bend the darkness of Silent Hill to her will, making it a part of her and she of it (she is referred to as The Empress for a reason).
She molded the world, putting her own nightmares in it, then forced it to change from form to form (there are about four Silent Hill incarnations: the normal tourist town, the fog world, the Otherworld, and Nowhere) to keep her mother at bay. But that comes at a price: now, the town’s darkness runs in her blood. No matter how many times she dies or runs away, she’ll always be pulled back. And she knows that. And that’s where the Alessa I’m playing comes from-there’s more to canon, but that’s not relevant beyond her catching glimpses of her own future, which basically involves getting reincarnated a lot and pulled back into Silent Hill.
She knows that she’ll eventually need to make the choice between giving birth to God, thus being reborn as the ultimate being but damning the world to eternal suffering at the hands to gods that feed off of pain, hate, and sin, or killing the godly fetus with a weapon coated with Aglaophotis, which will (possibly) create Paradise for the rest of the world, but she’ll die and be forced to bear all the suffering God has ever caused (hint: all of it), directly or indirectly, as a barrier between God and the world. For eternity.
This is heavy stuff for a seven-year-old to deal with.
Personality: We only know a little bit of what she was like before she was burned, but afterwards, she’s too heavily shrouded in mystery to tell that well. She was abused and neglected by her mother, so she has a general expectation that adults are going to hurt her in some way (though she is willing to trust if they show her she can trust them), and she has a similar expectation of children, since she was viciously bullied at school. Because of all the awful things that have happened to her, she can be extremely cruel and unforgiving (and she overestimates how much trauma someone can deal with before they develop life-long PTSD). On some level, I think s/he resents other people for their happiness, because the happiest people can sometimes also be the cruelest-they’ve never known real pain, so they don’t know what they do to others.
She gravitates towards kind-hearted people in pain and makes them prove themselves in some way by forcing them through Silent Hill and the trials the town provides, and if they get through it, she’s given them an opportunity to set themselves free. Silent Hill, in her view, is hell, and if you survive hell, you have atoned for your sins and left your deep-seated traumas behind you. At least, that’s how it’s supposed to work. It works like that at times, but at other times it leaves the survivor a broken shell. She doesn’t really know what it means to be happy, so I think she probably sees the shells as successes too-they’re alive and have atoned.
Although just because she can be cruel doesn’t mean she doesn’t have a soft side. If someone is kind to her, she is theirs, completely and utterly. All she wants in life is to be loved, and if someone provides for that need, she is willing to lie down and let them burn her alive (she’s done it before). She’s fiercely loyal and will put up with all kinds of abuse just so long as she feels she is loved.
She has an amazing well of inner strength, though. Her entire life has been marked by abuse, culminating in being burned alive (her skin was 100% third- and fourth-degree burns) and being forced to live for seven years in that charred body. And then she was reincarnated just to suffer all over again, and it’s implied that this will continue on forever. Even though she has developed a very cruel way of dealing with things, she has been able to keep hold of her senses throughout and continues to fight against the terrible things her mother is trying to do, no matter how much pain it causes her.
But, if she’s given some love and affection, she can blossom into a sweet, talkative, curious young girl who’s eager to please. If she’s properly cared for, especially by a patient man who won’t be scared away by her neediness or her inevitably rocky recovery. She also craves affection, and will require a lot of it if anyone has hope of reaching her.
She’s also very quick to get attached because of how intensely she wants to be loved, but there’s always a part of her holding back out of fear and the expectation to be hurt again.
Retained Abilities:
Vague imprints from damned souls in her head: She usually constantly has them inside of her, so their voices and memories are all quieted. She only has vague impressions of their memories, giving her way more knowledge and maturity a regular seven-year-old should have, and they talk to her sometimes. Usually they only bemoan their fates or insult her/insult who she’s talking to, but sometimes they’re helpful. They can tell her things they knew in life, which is generally just the simple things someone could find out just by looking on the Internet or something like that.
Ungodly pain tolerance: She was set on fire once. And then regenerated into the form she was before she was set on fire, but still is in constant pain. Yeah, something little like a broken arm or a dislocated joint won’t bother her in the least.
The maturity of an adult: Life and the memories from damned souls made her grow up very fast, and if she were given an IQ test, she’d probably have a genius IQ. She generally has the complexity of thought of an adult.
Weak telepathy: If someone opens themselves up to her, she can talk in their heads, share emotions, and read their thoughts, but her abilities of forcing people’s minds open are severely limited. It’s an intimate thing to do, since it can get into melding minds briefly if she and the other person do it long and/or often enough, so it’s not something to do lightly. This can also allow her to share dreams, which can be a valuable asset since she controls any shared dreams, but that also requires a lot of closeness.
A vague connection to the Otherworld: This generally manifests in nightmares and the voices in her head and stuff, along with her temperature perpetually being above the healthy zone (something like 101° being normal instead of 98.7°, her peak temperature being around her abdomen) without frying her brains or her personally feeling feverish.
Having fetus!God in her stomach: This doesn’t do much except make her abdomen hot and put her through constant pain.
And… I believe that’s it. Tell me if that’s too much.
III. SAMPLES
First Person Sample:
This is Alessa trying to bond with her big brother by extension after a very trying experiment.
This is Alessa having a moment with her friend.
And this is a long thread of adoptive father/daughter bonding. :3
Third Person Sample:
Alessa getting a talking-to by her adoptive sister’s evil twin.
Alessa making cookies with her friend. (Excuse the icon fail on my part, there was a keyword mishap a couple months ago that converted all the icons I used previous to that into the default. ^.^;; )
And Alessa meeting her future adoptive papa for the first time, about a week or less after her arrival to the facility. The icon thing applies to this as well, and it’s a long thread, so you could probably just read through a few comments and know enough.
Name: Smurf
Are you over the age of 16: Yep
LiveJournal: water_smurf
E-MAIL: Aquamarine.from.ocean@gmail.com
AIM: smurfheartstrong
II. CHARACTER INFORMATION
Character Name: Alessa Gillespie
Canon: Silent Hill
Timeline: Right before the original Silent Hill video game, a little under seven years after Silent Hill Origins.
History: Alessa and her mother are part of a cult called The Order, and before Alessa was born, The Order had a long history of kidnapping little girls and attempting to impregnate them with God (according to the Order, God had died a long time ago and, when She was reborn, She would usher everyone into Paradise). All the girls died either during the ceremony or soon afterwards.
There’s no mention of Alessa’s father, but it’s theorized that her mother, Dahlia, and a local doctor, Kaufmann, made a deal to get Dahlia pregnant and use the child to harvest God’s power, so Kaufmann could be her biological father.
Alessa was born with power that’s never fully explained. She was telekinetic and had the ability to make people die just by wishing for it, and the powers were evident enough to lead to her being called a witch at school and getting bullied. She was abused by Dahlia (partially because Dahlia’s absolutely nuts and partially because, for a religious ritual, Alessa had to be in as much pain as possible), abused by her classmates, and ignored by the school authorities, even when it was obvious how awfully people treated her. The only person she was ever friends with was a fellow abuse victim named Claudia, whose family also belonged to The Order. She thought of Claudia as her little sister.
When she was seven, her mother carried out the ritual to impregnate her with God, which involved lying her on the ground in the middle of a lot of cult symbols, then setting the house on fire. In the middle of the ritual, Alessa realized the true nature of God (God was in fact the source of all suffering and, if born, would basically damn the entire world to hell) and summoned a trucker, Travis, who happened to be driving by. Travis sees the burning house and breaks in, fighting through the flames to find Alessa, by now distinctly resembling human-shaped charcoal. Alessa told him to let her burn, probably because she would die and God would die with her, but Travis refused and carried her out of the house, thus kicking off the events of the Silent Hill: Origins game.
Travis fell unconscious by smoke inhalation and Dahlia came back to take Alessa to the hospital where Kaufmann worked. Kaufmann arranged for Alessa to be kept in secret and told the world that she had died. The only non-cult member to know about Alessa’s presence was her waiting nurse, Lisa Garland, who was forced to take care of Alessa quietly because she was addicted to drugs only Kaufmann could hook her up with. The experience drove Lisa insane, but Alessa viewed Lisa’s daily duties as genuine kindness and love to the point where she takes an imprint of Lisa into the world she creates, but we’re not at that part yet.
Alessa used astral projection to lead Travis into finding a cult artifact that helped focus her power and bring it to her, all the while forcing him to face the horrible things that happened in his childhood. When he used the artifact on her, she split her soul in half, putting the innocent half in a newborn baby, and her astral projection left the baby on the side of the road where a man and his wife find it. She released Travis because there was nothing more he could do, but kept alive by a ritual her mother had performed, she stayed in that sickroom, tended to by the increasingly unhinged Lisa and in constant pain as the embryo inside of her fed and grew from her pain, suffering, and hatred. She stayed there for seven years and eventually came to wish for death, but she kept fighting nonetheless, and she focused on mastering her power until she was able to bend the darkness of Silent Hill to her will, making it a part of her and she of it (she is referred to as The Empress for a reason).
She molded the world, putting her own nightmares in it, then forced it to change from form to form (there are about four Silent Hill incarnations: the normal tourist town, the fog world, the Otherworld, and Nowhere) to keep her mother at bay. But that comes at a price: now, the town’s darkness runs in her blood. No matter how many times she dies or runs away, she’ll always be pulled back. And she knows that. And that’s where the Alessa I’m playing comes from-there’s more to canon, but that’s not relevant beyond her catching glimpses of her own future, which basically involves getting reincarnated a lot and pulled back into Silent Hill.
She knows that she’ll eventually need to make the choice between giving birth to God, thus being reborn as the ultimate being but damning the world to eternal suffering at the hands to gods that feed off of pain, hate, and sin, or killing the godly fetus with a weapon coated with Aglaophotis, which will (possibly) create Paradise for the rest of the world, but she’ll die and be forced to bear all the suffering God has ever caused (hint: all of it), directly or indirectly, as a barrier between God and the world. For eternity.
This is heavy stuff for a seven-year-old to deal with.
Personality: We only know a little bit of what she was like before she was burned, but afterwards, she’s too heavily shrouded in mystery to tell that well. She was abused and neglected by her mother, so she has a general expectation that adults are going to hurt her in some way (though she is willing to trust if they show her she can trust them), and she has a similar expectation of children, since she was viciously bullied at school. Because of all the awful things that have happened to her, she can be extremely cruel and unforgiving (and she overestimates how much trauma someone can deal with before they develop life-long PTSD). On some level, I think s/he resents other people for their happiness, because the happiest people can sometimes also be the cruelest-they’ve never known real pain, so they don’t know what they do to others.
She gravitates towards kind-hearted people in pain and makes them prove themselves in some way by forcing them through Silent Hill and the trials the town provides, and if they get through it, she’s given them an opportunity to set themselves free. Silent Hill, in her view, is hell, and if you survive hell, you have atoned for your sins and left your deep-seated traumas behind you. At least, that’s how it’s supposed to work. It works like that at times, but at other times it leaves the survivor a broken shell. She doesn’t really know what it means to be happy, so I think she probably sees the shells as successes too-they’re alive and have atoned.
Although just because she can be cruel doesn’t mean she doesn’t have a soft side. If someone is kind to her, she is theirs, completely and utterly. All she wants in life is to be loved, and if someone provides for that need, she is willing to lie down and let them burn her alive (she’s done it before). She’s fiercely loyal and will put up with all kinds of abuse just so long as she feels she is loved.
She has an amazing well of inner strength, though. Her entire life has been marked by abuse, culminating in being burned alive (her skin was 100% third- and fourth-degree burns) and being forced to live for seven years in that charred body. And then she was reincarnated just to suffer all over again, and it’s implied that this will continue on forever. Even though she has developed a very cruel way of dealing with things, she has been able to keep hold of her senses throughout and continues to fight against the terrible things her mother is trying to do, no matter how much pain it causes her.
But, if she’s given some love and affection, she can blossom into a sweet, talkative, curious young girl who’s eager to please. If she’s properly cared for, especially by a patient man who won’t be scared away by her neediness or her inevitably rocky recovery. She also craves affection, and will require a lot of it if anyone has hope of reaching her.
She’s also very quick to get attached because of how intensely she wants to be loved, but there’s always a part of her holding back out of fear and the expectation to be hurt again.
Retained Abilities:
Vague imprints from damned souls in her head: She usually constantly has them inside of her, so their voices and memories are all quieted. She only has vague impressions of their memories, giving her way more knowledge and maturity a regular seven-year-old should have, and they talk to her sometimes. Usually they only bemoan their fates or insult her/insult who she’s talking to, but sometimes they’re helpful. They can tell her things they knew in life, which is generally just the simple things someone could find out just by looking on the Internet or something like that.
Ungodly pain tolerance: She was set on fire once. And then regenerated into the form she was before she was set on fire, but still is in constant pain. Yeah, something little like a broken arm or a dislocated joint won’t bother her in the least.
The maturity of an adult: Life and the memories from damned souls made her grow up very fast, and if she were given an IQ test, she’d probably have a genius IQ. She generally has the complexity of thought of an adult.
Weak telepathy: If someone opens themselves up to her, she can talk in their heads, share emotions, and read their thoughts, but her abilities of forcing people’s minds open are severely limited. It’s an intimate thing to do, since it can get into melding minds briefly if she and the other person do it long and/or often enough, so it’s not something to do lightly. This can also allow her to share dreams, which can be a valuable asset since she controls any shared dreams, but that also requires a lot of closeness.
A vague connection to the Otherworld: This generally manifests in nightmares and the voices in her head and stuff, along with her temperature perpetually being above the healthy zone (something like 101° being normal instead of 98.7°, her peak temperature being around her abdomen) without frying her brains or her personally feeling feverish.
Having fetus!God in her stomach: This doesn’t do much except make her abdomen hot and put her through constant pain.
And… I believe that’s it. Tell me if that’s too much.
III. SAMPLES
First Person Sample:
This is Alessa trying to bond with her big brother by extension after a very trying experiment.
This is Alessa having a moment with her friend.
And this is a long thread of adoptive father/daughter bonding. :3
Third Person Sample:
Alessa getting a talking-to by her adoptive sister’s evil twin.
Alessa making cookies with her friend. (Excuse the icon fail on my part, there was a keyword mishap a couple months ago that converted all the icons I used previous to that into the default. ^.^;; )
And Alessa meeting her future adoptive papa for the first time, about a week or less after her arrival to the facility. The icon thing applies to this as well, and it’s a long thread, so you could probably just read through a few comments and know enough.