Is it really worth it?
I've noticed myself thinking more recently something along the lines of "is the stuff I do really worth it?" and "does anyone care?" and I usually feel a bit down on myself
And I usually follow it up with "why am I thinking this way?"
I had been told by Brett before that journalism is a thankless profession. Usually, you only really hear people when they have an issue with something. But if you don't ever hear from anyone, does it mean that no one has an issue with what you're doing or have they just lost interest?
That silence scares me, and it makes me wonder how effective it would be if I even attempted to write a public post to invite people to volunteer for the website (like write, photos, or even news for me to then write up). Would anyone be there to read it?
I do work better in a group, or at least I feel a bit more secure in a group, not only because of the feedback opportunities, but also because I can get the help when I am bogged down with real world items. I've stepped up quite a bit for this website, but would there be anyone out there who would be willing to step it up for me?
I'm really trying hard to not these kinds of thoughts bring me down. But it is this thinking that keeps reinforcing my thought of stepping down come June. I know there will be some kind of response when I do write that post to explain how the website is going to shut down essentially (I don't even know if I want to talk to Brett on how to maintain the record-keeping aspect - he seems focused on his current job and complaining about national social inequalities), but the real issue on my end would be how the heek to even write that.
(sigh)
I'm probably overthinking things again, but with life going the way it is right now as well as other things I would like to do with it, I guess I do have a right to be somewhat selfish.
And I usually follow it up with "why am I thinking this way?"
I had been told by Brett before that journalism is a thankless profession. Usually, you only really hear people when they have an issue with something. But if you don't ever hear from anyone, does it mean that no one has an issue with what you're doing or have they just lost interest?
That silence scares me, and it makes me wonder how effective it would be if I even attempted to write a public post to invite people to volunteer for the website (like write, photos, or even news for me to then write up). Would anyone be there to read it?
I do work better in a group, or at least I feel a bit more secure in a group, not only because of the feedback opportunities, but also because I can get the help when I am bogged down with real world items. I've stepped up quite a bit for this website, but would there be anyone out there who would be willing to step it up for me?
I'm really trying hard to not these kinds of thoughts bring me down. But it is this thinking that keeps reinforcing my thought of stepping down come June. I know there will be some kind of response when I do write that post to explain how the website is going to shut down essentially (I don't even know if I want to talk to Brett on how to maintain the record-keeping aspect - he seems focused on his current job and complaining about national social inequalities), but the real issue on my end would be how the heek to even write that.
(sigh)
I'm probably overthinking things again, but with life going the way it is right now as well as other things I would like to do with it, I guess I do have a right to be somewhat selfish.