Like giving up...
I feel a little like giving up right now. I'm tired and emotional. I shouldn't be. My Dad is in town and I love being with my Dad. I guess it's just the realization that somehow I've expected him to make my Xmas into something great and no matter what he does he can't make the mess with the hubby or the in-laws better. He can't find me a job and help me figure out what the hell to do for Grad School when the time comes.
I don't even know what I'm feeling right now. Just... tired. I'm thinking of backing out of all the bingos I signed up for (other than HS since I have so many written already) just because I don't want to feel like I have to write for them right now. I don't have the inspiration for it or the desire I had when I signed up for it.
I don't want to stop writing... I just feel like I've had enough. I'm still trying to finish my J2_everafter stories and my apocabigbang, but I don't know what else to do right now. I feel thrilled after reading my first chapter of my SPN/La Femme Nikita crossover. I can't wait to write the first chapter of my Mary/John separating to separate the boys or my Sam/Dean/Jess/Castiel verses. And my CYOA story has 3 people who have shown interest in cheerleading/beta/kick me in the ass to do it :P So yeah!
But know. Even a prompt whore needs to stop with the challenges once in a while.
Up side... the person who requested Sailor Uranus banners over at insmallpackages liked them enough to ask for one without text :P I'm waiting to see if the coffee icon recipient will let me share them before I show them here. I had fun making those too. Maybe I'll focus on the other art project I have in mind for myself. It will be a learning experience either way.
Wish me luck all. Bad night. Hopefully the last few episodes of NCIS Season 6 will help me get in a lighter mood before breakfast with my Daddy.
I don't even know what I'm feeling right now. Just... tired. I'm thinking of backing out of all the bingos I signed up for (other than HS since I have so many written already) just because I don't want to feel like I have to write for them right now. I don't have the inspiration for it or the desire I had when I signed up for it.
I don't want to stop writing... I just feel like I've had enough. I'm still trying to finish my J2_everafter stories and my apocabigbang, but I don't know what else to do right now. I feel thrilled after reading my first chapter of my SPN/La Femme Nikita crossover. I can't wait to write the first chapter of my Mary/John separating to separate the boys or my Sam/Dean/Jess/Castiel verses. And my CYOA story has 3 people who have shown interest in cheerleading/beta/kick me in the ass to do it :P So yeah!
But know. Even a prompt whore needs to stop with the challenges once in a while.
Up side... the person who requested Sailor Uranus banners over at insmallpackages liked them enough to ask for one without text :P I'm waiting to see if the coffee icon recipient will let me share them before I show them here. I had fun making those too. Maybe I'll focus on the other art project I have in mind for myself. It will be a learning experience either way.
Wish me luck all. Bad night. Hopefully the last few episodes of NCIS Season 6 will help me get in a lighter mood before breakfast with my Daddy.