Wow... Bang Anxiety...
I'm feeling bang anxiety.
I just saw another post about a bang that would be opening up soon and I'm totally stressed about it.
I told myself I wasn't signing up for everything this year. I want to give myself the time and space to just write when I'm in the mood, to do long projects without a deadline, to maybe invest myself in some WIPS... but whenever I see these posts I think.. Oh but I could come up with something...
There are certain ones I know I will do again. I plan on hitting up spn_j2_bigbang . I plan on doing startrekbigbang (since I dropped it last year) and I've already signed up for apocabigbang . I'll mostly likely do the sncross_bigbang as well (because it was one of my first bangs as well :P) I even have thoughts of the ncis_bigbang and werewolfbigbang if they're out there this year (because I didn't do them last year). But I am not doing every bang, no matter how great a time I had last year with a specific challenge. I just can't keep doing it. It's making everything last minute instead of giving me time to develop what I want to.
Ie: I have a story i've been working on for a long time. I want it to be angsty and malicious and painful and yet still have a foundation that can spring the boys back from that to the love they share. I need to work on it because it's not as moody and painful as I want it to be. I tend to write for the Happily Ever After... not the scared for life sorta fics, but I love this story and the idea. So I want to focus on things like that. Maybe i'll enter that as my spn big bang but maybe I won't. I don't want it rushed and pushed and yet if I keep my challenges down I should have plenty of time to finish that story and get a number of betas to help me beat it into shape.
But I still have big bang sign up anxiety. *sighs* Not because I shouldn't sign up... but because I really sorta wanna. I love having people do artwork for my stories and I'm sure that's why I do all the bangs. It just makes me so damn happy to see someone else working with me on something and I love it. I just... need to remember (apparently) that I have a perfectly good graphics program and that I can make my own stuff if I really wanted to do it. Not as good as what someone else would make, but hey I did art for a bang this year and I think I did okay :P
Anyway.. enough ranting. Time to go write my j2_everafter! Jensen, Misha, and Jeff as the Three Musketeers with Jared tagging along as D'Artagnan and Danneel as a spoiled space Princess that didn't want to be captured but doesn't want to run an Empire anyway! Good times! (To be followed up by the Jared and Jensen foster brother supers who must face their own hatred of one another to held their foster parents when their arch nemesis finds them)
:P
I just saw another post about a bang that would be opening up soon and I'm totally stressed about it.
I told myself I wasn't signing up for everything this year. I want to give myself the time and space to just write when I'm in the mood, to do long projects without a deadline, to maybe invest myself in some WIPS... but whenever I see these posts I think.. Oh but I could come up with something...
There are certain ones I know I will do again. I plan on hitting up spn_j2_bigbang . I plan on doing startrekbigbang (since I dropped it last year) and I've already signed up for apocabigbang . I'll mostly likely do the sncross_bigbang as well (because it was one of my first bangs as well :P) I even have thoughts of the ncis_bigbang and werewolfbigbang if they're out there this year (because I didn't do them last year). But I am not doing every bang, no matter how great a time I had last year with a specific challenge. I just can't keep doing it. It's making everything last minute instead of giving me time to develop what I want to.
Ie: I have a story i've been working on for a long time. I want it to be angsty and malicious and painful and yet still have a foundation that can spring the boys back from that to the love they share. I need to work on it because it's not as moody and painful as I want it to be. I tend to write for the Happily Ever After... not the scared for life sorta fics, but I love this story and the idea. So I want to focus on things like that. Maybe i'll enter that as my spn big bang but maybe I won't. I don't want it rushed and pushed and yet if I keep my challenges down I should have plenty of time to finish that story and get a number of betas to help me beat it into shape.
But I still have big bang sign up anxiety. *sighs* Not because I shouldn't sign up... but because I really sorta wanna. I love having people do artwork for my stories and I'm sure that's why I do all the bangs. It just makes me so damn happy to see someone else working with me on something and I love it. I just... need to remember (apparently) that I have a perfectly good graphics program and that I can make my own stuff if I really wanted to do it. Not as good as what someone else would make, but hey I did art for a bang this year and I think I did okay :P
Anyway.. enough ranting. Time to go write my j2_everafter! Jensen, Misha, and Jeff as the Three Musketeers with Jared tagging along as D'Artagnan and Danneel as a spoiled space Princess that didn't want to be captured but doesn't want to run an Empire anyway! Good times! (To be followed up by the Jared and Jensen foster brother supers who must face their own hatred of one another to held their foster parents when their arch nemesis finds them)
:P