i miss her
ugh i am not going down to ardsley 2marrow. im so pissed. angelo si goning to be even more pissed. i wonder if he si off on monday, maybe we can see them then. i dunno. anyway. wow this week was boring. anyway tomarrow is good frieday. not gonna be such a happy day. cua last year on good friday was sonias funneral. i miss her so much. my life was never compl;ete until th day i met sonia and we became best friends. wow these next to weeks are going to be realli hard. i miss her so much. i wish she was still here, i wish she never left. but nothing i say can change what happened. its just that i never got to say goodbye. i was reading some old journal entries from when sonia passed away. here are some
this was the day before sonia died
Current mood: confused Current music: this love
i hate life and bz
LIFE IS SO WRONG RIGHT NOW. i hate bz. he is the biggest jerk around. He does not know how to treat any1 he meets. i also hate life cause i am neva gonna hav a bf. no one has eva liked me. and i hav neva had a bf. i hate it.
i hate life so much.
karina i wish u were here wit me in somas. i miss u so much. when r u comin bac. i hate life. brian if u read this i hope u understand. the thing is i hate u but i still hav a thing for u. please im me if u eva read this. i want u to know tat u can really ast like a jerk, and it hurts. especially when it ia about some1. but when u r the only one talkin to me u r such a sweet heart. i wish u could do tat around ur friends.
i hope u read this
then this is the day she did died
OMG [06 Apr 2004|08:39pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | MY BLOODY VALENTINE ]
omg, my best friend sonia died today. she was only 12. it is not fair. y did she hav to go. it is noit fair life is not fair. Morgan, if u read this i am gonna punch ur face out on monday. I hate ur fuckin guts. Go Fuck a TREE.
SONIA I LUV U WITH ALL ME HEART, I AM NEVA GONNA FORGET ALL THE GREAT TIMES WE HAD TOGETHER
I LUV U SO MUCH
BRIAN IF U EVA READ THIS I HOPE U UNDERSTAND Y I AM NOT MYSELF. U CAN READ THIS I HOPE U UNDERSTAND.
KARINA I LUV U
ALI I LUV U
JESSIE I LUV U
MIKE I LUV U
KRISSY I LUV U
CESCA I LUV U
ANTHONY M I LUV U
ANTHONY C I LUV U
ERICA I LUV U
EVERY ONE I LUV U
i will add more lata