The rain returns, and so do I.
( I'm referring to thoughts surrounding this post.)
I'm back. Thank G-d.
By which I mean to say that I think so.... Pretty sure.
Unecessarily second-guessing myself. Gotta stop that.
It's been a year and change of meandering and sitting: that was no fucking good. But now, things fall into place and I can see my life panning out and making sense again, more or less.
I guess that I really do like being a student; an academic; a scholar. Last Spring's shot at intro courses was okay, but if I can't talk with the TA, discuss with the prof, and knock back a few with a fellow geeky keener, I'm just not interested.
How does this stack up? Last Spring, with languages and math, was a "C. " COPE was an "A-." Going nuts as a (cough) 'freelance writer' was a "D." Teaching ranged from a "B-" to an "expelled for molesting the Dean's dog."
This, now (intro to gender, geography and gender, biotechnology and gender, and integral calculus - a post-bac? qualifying for grad?) is a "B," or maybe a "B+." An "A" would be a job or major directly related to my calling - something I have yet to identify.
It'll do.
I'm back. Thank G-d.
By which I mean to say that I think so.... Pretty sure.
Unecessarily second-guessing myself. Gotta stop that.
It's been a year and change of meandering and sitting: that was no fucking good. But now, things fall into place and I can see my life panning out and making sense again, more or less.
I guess that I really do like being a student; an academic; a scholar. Last Spring's shot at intro courses was okay, but if I can't talk with the TA, discuss with the prof, and knock back a few with a fellow geeky keener, I'm just not interested.
How does this stack up? Last Spring, with languages and math, was a "C. " COPE was an "A-." Going nuts as a (cough) 'freelance writer' was a "D." Teaching ranged from a "B-" to an "expelled for molesting the Dean's dog."
This, now (intro to gender, geography and gender, biotechnology and gender, and integral calculus - a post-bac? qualifying for grad?) is a "B," or maybe a "B+." An "A" would be a job or major directly related to my calling - something I have yet to identify.
It'll do.