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so my "running away" to florida didnt really work out so well. i realized how tough things were going to be since i was goign to be on my own completely. not only that. but when you want to go back to the past.. and you do. its never really the same. even being back in maryland isnt the same. im not close to people anymore. people left for college. im just fucked right now. im stuck.
im so dependent on change. i need it to keep my mind off how bored and depressed i am. i want to go everywhere and meet everyone. i dont think ill ever be happy in just one place.
but then again im not even sure if ill ever be happy period.
raaawrr im frustrated in so many ways. im tired of being alone. i feel like im wasting energy. i need to spend it on someone.
i need to make art. ive been dry fora while.
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never.
im so dependent on change. i need it to keep my mind off how bored and depressed i am. i want to go everywhere and meet everyone. i dont think ill ever be happy in just one place.
but then again im not even sure if ill ever be happy period.
raaawrr im frustrated in so many ways. im tired of being alone. i feel like im wasting energy. i need to spend it on someone.
i need to make art. ive been dry fora while.
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never.