i feel horrible
maybe we cant be friends. those are words that i want to choke on before they come out of my own mouth and i hear them outloud. but there are such blurred lines that even i cant find them anymore. and i was always the one with a clear and rational mind. we depended on me to be the cool headed one with all the perception.
now im finding myself in places that dont do either of us any good. you eventually figure it out but its something i know and feel right when it all begins. im just not finding the words to say them outloud.
not finding those words, but "maybe we cant be friends" seems to come very easily.
you get close, and then you get too close and its hard to ever go back. hard when youre 19 and so young and going throug so many other things in life. it sounds so easy when you talk about it and then you get thrown into a situation and everything goes blank and dark.
maybe time away would be a good thing. im scared that if im gone for a few months, we will go back to nothing because out of sight, out of mind. i dont think your one of those people to cling on to something you know will be better in the end.
i just dont have the energy to committ to anything. anything. im looking for a lot of things and im depending on those around me not to let go. not that i have to fight to find them and myself all in a matter of a few months.
just dont let go. weve been through so much and its not right to just give it all up and walk away.
not without a fight. not without a chance.
"Inside out, upside-down twisting beside myself,
Stop that now, cause you and I were never meant to be
I think you better leave; it's not safe in here,
I feel a weakness coming on.
Alright then (Alright then) I could keep your number for a rainy day,
That's where this ends, no mistakes no misbehaving,
Oh, I was doing so well, can we just be friends,
I feel a weakness coming on.
It's not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don't want to feel like this, Yeah,
No it's not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don't want to feel like this, so that makes it all your fault.
Inside out, upside-down twisting beside myself,
Stop that now; you're as close as it gets without touching me,
Oh no, don't make it harder than it already is,
Mmm, I feel a weakness coming on.
It's not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don't want to feel like this, Yeah,
No it's not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don't want to feel like this, so that makes it all your fault.
Big trouble losing control,
Primary resistance at a critical low,
On the double gotta get a hold,
Point of no return one second to go,
No response on any level, red alert this vessels under siege,
Total overload, systems down, they've got control,
There's no way out, we are surrounded,
Give in, give in and relish every minute of it
Freeze, awake here forever, I feel a weakness coming on.
It's not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don't want to feel like this, Yeah,
No it's not meant to be like this, it's just what I don't need,
Why make me feel like this, it's definitely all your fault. "
now im finding myself in places that dont do either of us any good. you eventually figure it out but its something i know and feel right when it all begins. im just not finding the words to say them outloud.
not finding those words, but "maybe we cant be friends" seems to come very easily.
you get close, and then you get too close and its hard to ever go back. hard when youre 19 and so young and going throug so many other things in life. it sounds so easy when you talk about it and then you get thrown into a situation and everything goes blank and dark.
maybe time away would be a good thing. im scared that if im gone for a few months, we will go back to nothing because out of sight, out of mind. i dont think your one of those people to cling on to something you know will be better in the end.
i just dont have the energy to committ to anything. anything. im looking for a lot of things and im depending on those around me not to let go. not that i have to fight to find them and myself all in a matter of a few months.
just dont let go. weve been through so much and its not right to just give it all up and walk away.
not without a fight. not without a chance.
"Inside out, upside-down twisting beside myself,
Stop that now, cause you and I were never meant to be
I think you better leave; it's not safe in here,
I feel a weakness coming on.
Alright then (Alright then) I could keep your number for a rainy day,
That's where this ends, no mistakes no misbehaving,
Oh, I was doing so well, can we just be friends,
I feel a weakness coming on.
It's not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don't want to feel like this, Yeah,
No it's not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don't want to feel like this, so that makes it all your fault.
Inside out, upside-down twisting beside myself,
Stop that now; you're as close as it gets without touching me,
Oh no, don't make it harder than it already is,
Mmm, I feel a weakness coming on.
It's not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don't want to feel like this, Yeah,
No it's not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don't want to feel like this, so that makes it all your fault.
Big trouble losing control,
Primary resistance at a critical low,
On the double gotta get a hold,
Point of no return one second to go,
No response on any level, red alert this vessels under siege,
Total overload, systems down, they've got control,
There's no way out, we are surrounded,
Give in, give in and relish every minute of it
Freeze, awake here forever, I feel a weakness coming on.
It's not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don't want to feel like this, Yeah,
No it's not meant to be like this, it's just what I don't need,
Why make me feel like this, it's definitely all your fault. "