well its about time huh?
wow- so since Palau a whole heck of a lot has happened. the biggest thing i guess is that i'm single- about time huh? i was just 12 hours ago missing him...and am now, in this moment so very very glad he is not in my life anymore- why does one long for that which can hurt them so? i just dont understand. soo...other than that whole thing which continues to haunt me, school is pretty good. I'm so glad i'm here at SPU actually (even though everybody rags on it), the work load of my classes is a bit overwhelming this quarter, but nothing I cant cope with. I have a new family to work for too. so now I have 3 families! i love my job- playing with kids is just so refreshing and fun. i wish i had more time to work out and be outside, but if i'm not at class or at work, I'm doing homework and trying to get some sleep somewhere in between there. so now I'm looking for a new residence for next year and it is actually very exciting- a bit stressful too because I get nervous about not finding a place- hopefully one will come up soon- that would be nice. very nice. ok well my eyes feel heavy- i think I'll go lay on my bed for a bit before work. It's a beautiful new day*
My Thoughts on Last Night: pain in my heart... hope on the horizon...i think i just need to be catapulted from here to there- wherever there may be..i just dont know. so blurry and yet so clear too..i think i would rather it be blurry sometimes so i cant see the evil in people anymore. i just want to pretend everyone is nice and cares about how people feel- but its not true. people can be mean and then pretend to be nice- why? if u want to be mean, be mean and dont try to cover it with chocolate or something sweet because it just results in cavities! cavities in the heart. well thats pretty much how i feel about that. be real people- please.