Somehow I wonder, what kind of girl am I potraying to the world? It seems that many a times, people know me better than I know myself. They are able to define who I'm just by looking at me from surface. I salute these people, really. Because even I, myself get confused about my identity sometimes.
I have received many comments about me being very quiet initially only to know I'm actually pretty noisy. Some people think I'm stucked up while some find me approachable even at the 1st meeting. Some people assume that I have very high expectations of myself, my boyfriend & people around me. And some people sterotyped me with girls who are materialistic, high maintenance and difficult.
I think that's pretty unfair.
Because I think I'm better than how people are proclaiming who I'm.
For a start, I don't need to be drove around. And I don't need a boyfriend who is a high-flier and earns enough to shower me with LVs and Pradas every month. If it can sound any simpler, I rather have a boyfriend who loves me and have a moderate life than a boyfriend who flirts around but earns thousands a month.
I hold expectations for myself, yes but never for people around me.
Weixuan can come tell me he's going to quit the force today because he's unhappy. I will respect his decision and I won't most definitely look down on him just because he's jobless. I would rather he's happy.
I don't see the need to exert pressure on my loved ones just because I have high expectations on myself. They are who they are.
But somehow, people are judging me like that. And seriously, that's pretty disappointing.
When will people start learning to look deeper beneath the face itself?
They may have met girls like that.
(A big BUT.)
Not girls are the same.
And it seems that only people who have sticked around long enough knows that I can actually be the simplest girl around.
Love,
Simple Shan