oh no...
tour is in 5.5 hours. I have to be up before then. I wanted to go to bed, but I don't know that I'll be able to now. I need sleep. I'm so emotionally drained. And my body can't handle much more of this stress. Right now, I am dreading tour more than anything. I don't have everything done. There aren't enough thank you notes... and I don't know what I am going to do. I am screwed. Not really, but it feels like it. I ordered them... they didn't come in in time. So I had to take what they had... and I'm still like 30 short. Not cool.
I want to cry. I'm behind on schoolwork, and I won't get much done over tour anyway. There's no way. I'll try to, and I'll bring homework along, but it just won't get done. And then I'll be even further behind.
I'm going to try and relax on tour. Enjoy my time. Laugh and have fun... and not worry about all the drunk people and everyone who's complaining. They're so disrespectful. And it makes me feel like my job isn't even really worth it. But whatever to them...... except not. If only I had enough thank you notes... I feel awful. Like I've failed. And I know I haven't, because I ordered them like a month ago... or maybe 3 weeks... but still. I didn't have time to go get any from the store today either. I guess my hope is that I'll be able to get some when we stop tomorrow. I just hope I can find some...
OMG, I am going to die.....
I just want to go home. And crash. And sleep for a really long time. And have a chance to get all caught up on all the work I have to do. And eat good food. And not be sick. And not have to worry about anything. And now I'm crying again...
I'm so scared for me... I'm scared I'm going to just drop over dead one day. I have too much to do... and as much as I want to go to China, I am almost dreading it just as much, because I know I'll have work to do for that, and I won't really get a break at all until after I get back from China. But then I'll have to worry about a job and all that....
O.K. I'm going to finish packing now before I go any crazier. :(
I want to cry. I'm behind on schoolwork, and I won't get much done over tour anyway. There's no way. I'll try to, and I'll bring homework along, but it just won't get done. And then I'll be even further behind.
I'm going to try and relax on tour. Enjoy my time. Laugh and have fun... and not worry about all the drunk people and everyone who's complaining. They're so disrespectful. And it makes me feel like my job isn't even really worth it. But whatever to them...... except not. If only I had enough thank you notes... I feel awful. Like I've failed. And I know I haven't, because I ordered them like a month ago... or maybe 3 weeks... but still. I didn't have time to go get any from the store today either. I guess my hope is that I'll be able to get some when we stop tomorrow. I just hope I can find some...
OMG, I am going to die.....
I just want to go home. And crash. And sleep for a really long time. And have a chance to get all caught up on all the work I have to do. And eat good food. And not be sick. And not have to worry about anything. And now I'm crying again...
I'm so scared for me... I'm scared I'm going to just drop over dead one day. I have too much to do... and as much as I want to go to China, I am almost dreading it just as much, because I know I'll have work to do for that, and I won't really get a break at all until after I get back from China. But then I'll have to worry about a job and all that....
O.K. I'm going to finish packing now before I go any crazier. :(