Urgh.
Well, I'm alive...
The past few days have been so crazy, I'm just kinda lost. I've been really busy the past few days and this is the first day where I didn't have a ton of stuff to do. I miss my family more than I can even explain...and my Mom seems to be taking this not so well and I feel awful and selfish for going. I just don't know what the right choice was or is or whatever...or even if there is a right. I really have no idea.
Saying goodbye to my Mom at the halfway point was the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life and I miss her so much already. Everything has just been building up this past week and I can't shake these feelings of "this is the last time I'm going to sleep in my bed, what if this is the last time I sit and watch TV with my parents, this is the last time I will swim in our pool with my sisters...I hate those feelings.
My Aunt and Uncle have been really nice and trying to make me feel as home as possible, but it's still kinda akward even though I've been over here so many times before. I just don't want to be an annoyance to them ro anything like that...and I don't want to be mean to Ally because I know she's really excited that I'm here and excited to have a "buddy" to hang around with while her parents are at work, but I really kinda need some alone time right now to just think and accept that this is how it is going to be for a while. I need some time to just sit in the barn with my bunnies and try NOT to think, without having to entertain Ally. Things will get easier once all of us get used to this and it's not so much like a long vacation. I hope my Mom is gonna be okay. :(
Shelly came up today which was awesome, except she got lost and I am crap at giving directions, lol. I think I sent her the wrong way a few times too many. She got here eventually though so it's all good. There isn't much to do in Owosso but we ate spaghettios, sunbathed in the shade in front of Tim Hortons for like half an hour, and walked around and looked at all the weird little shops that I never really knew existed or payed much attention to. Crazy stuff huh.
Then my family is coming up in a week and a half...hopefully there will be some good news when my Dad talks to some of my Grandpa's friends about the whole business thing. I hope hope hope...I miss my family so much already and I can't wait for them to come up. Just makes me sad to think that it'll be a while after that until they come up again. :'( Me and Andrea will be celebrating our bday together though, I think. That's what we planned earlier anyway. Crap, I need to get Andrea something. And I'm kinda broke now after that rabbit show. Okay, I'm totally broke. And she is so hard to buy for...cause she has everything already. Dangit.
I kinda miss T-LAP. And everyone is so busy or just seems...unenthusiastic I guess. Everyone was all excited that I was coming back and now they all sound busy and...not caring so much?...well I saw Emily and Julia today cause Emily had to babysit Ally and Julia came along so she could come see the new bunnies and the baby bunnies and everything. Andrea has swim camp, some karate thing and 2 jobs so she's really busy, Alicia sounded like she was free but seemed kinda...eh I dunno. Jolene has to babysit like everyday. I just want to say hi to everyone and not go the whole summer without us seeing each other, you know? Eh I suppose we'll get together soon...and I really have to see my cuz soon. We're supposed to have a 4-H thing tommorow so we can get our entries in for fair but doesn't sound like it's going to happen? I need to get my entries done like SOON because the deadline is coming up fast and we're going to be on a lot of trip type deals. Oy.
Wednesday night/Thursday morning through Sunday night my aunt and uncle are going to regionals (horse show) in Indianapolis...the hotel sounds pretty sweet. I just hope the barn people don't forget about my poor rabbits! Then after the Coldwater show in July I'll be heading to Silver Lake with Michelle...oy now that I think about it it's gonna be pretty busy from the week of me and Andrea's birthdays on after...until about mid July. Dang. I was just going to complain that I have nothing to do in the middle of the day when Allys at art camp and my aunt and uncle are at work...even lazing around is kinda akward. But I guess i should enjoy it while I can. It's kinda hard to have the alone time I need so bad right now because my bed hasn't came in yet, I have a room but it's rather empty right now....my bed = the couch. Ally follows me to the rabbit barn cause she likes the bunnies lol but that used to be my chill out spot!! Where I could just kinda relax and people wouldn't bug me...yea I'm antisocial (not all the time....just when I need to think cause I guess I can't multitask? lol)
Dude this is long. I'm scared that the computer is going to freeze if I keep going but whatever, I think this autosaves anyway. So, bunny ramble from the Charlotte show (well mostly just new-bunny ramble, I'm too tired to talk about everything that happened but it was pretty fun.
So new bunnies...we all got there around the same time so me, Ellyn, Sher and Margaret all had a big spot together which was just like Fuzzy heaven haha (with poor Ellyn and her POWITH!!!11 stuck in the middle somewhere). So as you can imagine, I found the temptation of all the adorable bunnies they brought for me to look at quite hard to resist...yeah, I have no self control. I brought home 7 bunnies. x_x Best part is I got a bunch of them as "give me a baby back and you can have it for free" deals, which ironically are the best ones I got IMO.
All American Fuzzy Lops:
- Bastet's REW buck (needs a name) He is sooo cute, looks just like a little JW with lop ears and a bigger head. He has the cutest "hair" ever and I LOVE his wool...I've been wanting a REW Fuzzy forever. It's so cute on them. He's out of all Brian's rabbits too, just from Bastet's barn.
- JJ's Jumper (bkn blue buck ~ 2 GC legs) He's on lease for a year from Sher, on account that I keep him brushed and show him, and give her a baby or two occasionally......OMG he is gorgeous, I can't believe he's mine! Even if it is just for a year. He's just about perfect and if I could get a copy of him through one of his babies I would be so very happy! He's so sweet and funny too.
- Ski's Trinkett II (bkn chestnut doe) She's such a cutie! She is out of one of my original bucks, Ski's Lucky Charm. I'm so happy to kinda have a piece of my old herd, even if Lucky wasn't a homebred...she's such a cute little girl, love her!
- Ski's Bkn black doe (needs a name) She's gorgeous and super smooth, especially over the hindquarters which is what I really need. Really nice easy coat too...and she's a chocolate carrier. Sweet.
- Sher's orange doe (needs a name) I like her head because its more buck like and my does tend to have...well, doe-y heads. She is also very smooth and has a good coat. I just don't like that she is too long in general...hopefully we can shorten up her babies with my bucks...but as soon as I get one better than her I'm moving her out lol.
- Sher's Dinty More (tort doe) OMG she is so tiny and cute! I love her! Just too cute...
- Naragon's bkn tort doe (needs a name) She is HUGE. Really nice type and wool though, she is a Fuzzy Holland and has some of the best Holland lines (almost all Naragon's and Saynora's) I have to put her on a diet though cause shes definitely not taking with her being this big lol.
And upcoming litters:
Due 7/05 ish:
Sher's orange doe x Shari's Robin
Sher's Dinty More x Bastet's ???
Due 7/20:
Ski's Trinkett II x JJ's Jumper
Ski's bkn black doe x Shari's Muscat
Sher's Darla x Bastet's REW buck
Dang. I need some nestboxes. >.< I have...2? haha
Best part of the show?
BOS with Jumper! The other rabbits placed well too but I don't feel like typing up all the results, maybe when I find my comment cards...not too shabby except for the brood does which I just showed for comments, they placed middle to top class which wasn't too bad. Wally got BOSV and Todd Naragon REALLY liked her. Said her ears just need to go down all the way and she'd be great - even said she had a HOT little body and I almost died laughing. Just picturing Lisa's face lol.
I need a job. OMG do I need a job.
The past few days have been so crazy, I'm just kinda lost. I've been really busy the past few days and this is the first day where I didn't have a ton of stuff to do. I miss my family more than I can even explain...and my Mom seems to be taking this not so well and I feel awful and selfish for going. I just don't know what the right choice was or is or whatever...or even if there is a right. I really have no idea.
Saying goodbye to my Mom at the halfway point was the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life and I miss her so much already. Everything has just been building up this past week and I can't shake these feelings of "this is the last time I'm going to sleep in my bed, what if this is the last time I sit and watch TV with my parents, this is the last time I will swim in our pool with my sisters...I hate those feelings.
My Aunt and Uncle have been really nice and trying to make me feel as home as possible, but it's still kinda akward even though I've been over here so many times before. I just don't want to be an annoyance to them ro anything like that...and I don't want to be mean to Ally because I know she's really excited that I'm here and excited to have a "buddy" to hang around with while her parents are at work, but I really kinda need some alone time right now to just think and accept that this is how it is going to be for a while. I need some time to just sit in the barn with my bunnies and try NOT to think, without having to entertain Ally. Things will get easier once all of us get used to this and it's not so much like a long vacation. I hope my Mom is gonna be okay. :(
Shelly came up today which was awesome, except she got lost and I am crap at giving directions, lol. I think I sent her the wrong way a few times too many. She got here eventually though so it's all good. There isn't much to do in Owosso but we ate spaghettios, sunbathed in the shade in front of Tim Hortons for like half an hour, and walked around and looked at all the weird little shops that I never really knew existed or payed much attention to. Crazy stuff huh.
Then my family is coming up in a week and a half...hopefully there will be some good news when my Dad talks to some of my Grandpa's friends about the whole business thing. I hope hope hope...I miss my family so much already and I can't wait for them to come up. Just makes me sad to think that it'll be a while after that until they come up again. :'( Me and Andrea will be celebrating our bday together though, I think. That's what we planned earlier anyway. Crap, I need to get Andrea something. And I'm kinda broke now after that rabbit show. Okay, I'm totally broke. And she is so hard to buy for...cause she has everything already. Dangit.
I kinda miss T-LAP. And everyone is so busy or just seems...unenthusiastic I guess. Everyone was all excited that I was coming back and now they all sound busy and...not caring so much?...well I saw Emily and Julia today cause Emily had to babysit Ally and Julia came along so she could come see the new bunnies and the baby bunnies and everything. Andrea has swim camp, some karate thing and 2 jobs so she's really busy, Alicia sounded like she was free but seemed kinda...eh I dunno. Jolene has to babysit like everyday. I just want to say hi to everyone and not go the whole summer without us seeing each other, you know? Eh I suppose we'll get together soon...and I really have to see my cuz soon. We're supposed to have a 4-H thing tommorow so we can get our entries in for fair but doesn't sound like it's going to happen? I need to get my entries done like SOON because the deadline is coming up fast and we're going to be on a lot of trip type deals. Oy.
Wednesday night/Thursday morning through Sunday night my aunt and uncle are going to regionals (horse show) in Indianapolis...the hotel sounds pretty sweet. I just hope the barn people don't forget about my poor rabbits! Then after the Coldwater show in July I'll be heading to Silver Lake with Michelle...oy now that I think about it it's gonna be pretty busy from the week of me and Andrea's birthdays on after...until about mid July. Dang. I was just going to complain that I have nothing to do in the middle of the day when Allys at art camp and my aunt and uncle are at work...even lazing around is kinda akward. But I guess i should enjoy it while I can. It's kinda hard to have the alone time I need so bad right now because my bed hasn't came in yet, I have a room but it's rather empty right now....my bed = the couch. Ally follows me to the rabbit barn cause she likes the bunnies lol but that used to be my chill out spot!! Where I could just kinda relax and people wouldn't bug me...yea I'm antisocial (not all the time....just when I need to think cause I guess I can't multitask? lol)
Dude this is long. I'm scared that the computer is going to freeze if I keep going but whatever, I think this autosaves anyway. So, bunny ramble from the Charlotte show (well mostly just new-bunny ramble, I'm too tired to talk about everything that happened but it was pretty fun.
So new bunnies...we all got there around the same time so me, Ellyn, Sher and Margaret all had a big spot together which was just like Fuzzy heaven haha (with poor Ellyn and her POWITH!!!11 stuck in the middle somewhere). So as you can imagine, I found the temptation of all the adorable bunnies they brought for me to look at quite hard to resist...yeah, I have no self control. I brought home 7 bunnies. x_x Best part is I got a bunch of them as "give me a baby back and you can have it for free" deals, which ironically are the best ones I got IMO.
All American Fuzzy Lops:
- Bastet's REW buck (needs a name) He is sooo cute, looks just like a little JW with lop ears and a bigger head. He has the cutest "hair" ever and I LOVE his wool...I've been wanting a REW Fuzzy forever. It's so cute on them. He's out of all Brian's rabbits too, just from Bastet's barn.
- JJ's Jumper (bkn blue buck ~ 2 GC legs) He's on lease for a year from Sher, on account that I keep him brushed and show him, and give her a baby or two occasionally......OMG he is gorgeous, I can't believe he's mine! Even if it is just for a year. He's just about perfect and if I could get a copy of him through one of his babies I would be so very happy! He's so sweet and funny too.
- Ski's Trinkett II (bkn chestnut doe) She's such a cutie! She is out of one of my original bucks, Ski's Lucky Charm. I'm so happy to kinda have a piece of my old herd, even if Lucky wasn't a homebred...she's such a cute little girl, love her!
- Ski's Bkn black doe (needs a name) She's gorgeous and super smooth, especially over the hindquarters which is what I really need. Really nice easy coat too...and she's a chocolate carrier. Sweet.
- Sher's orange doe (needs a name) I like her head because its more buck like and my does tend to have...well, doe-y heads. She is also very smooth and has a good coat. I just don't like that she is too long in general...hopefully we can shorten up her babies with my bucks...but as soon as I get one better than her I'm moving her out lol.
- Sher's Dinty More (tort doe) OMG she is so tiny and cute! I love her! Just too cute...
- Naragon's bkn tort doe (needs a name) She is HUGE. Really nice type and wool though, she is a Fuzzy Holland and has some of the best Holland lines (almost all Naragon's and Saynora's) I have to put her on a diet though cause shes definitely not taking with her being this big lol.
And upcoming litters:
Due 7/05 ish:
Sher's orange doe x Shari's Robin
Sher's Dinty More x Bastet's ???
Due 7/20:
Ski's Trinkett II x JJ's Jumper
Ski's bkn black doe x Shari's Muscat
Sher's Darla x Bastet's REW buck
Dang. I need some nestboxes. >.< I have...2? haha
Best part of the show?
BOS with Jumper! The other rabbits placed well too but I don't feel like typing up all the results, maybe when I find my comment cards...not too shabby except for the brood does which I just showed for comments, they placed middle to top class which wasn't too bad. Wally got BOSV and Todd Naragon REALLY liked her. Said her ears just need to go down all the way and she'd be great - even said she had a HOT little body and I almost died laughing. Just picturing Lisa's face lol.
I need a job. OMG do I need a job.