Dark Alliance
Eh, don't mind the name, i was looking at my video game in front of me. Isn't it unfortunate.. that each time i have a spare moment to write... its bad news? Ya.. i think i'm gonna cry again. I feel like i'm being fucking taken advantage of. Ya, after having one person lecture me, and ask is becca was mad about what was in her LJ, I went to read it, and i was NOT happy at what i saw. Yes, if you read it, the things i said were said, but Becca seemed to forget a few things. Like him saying to people that she cheated on him w/ 10-12 guys? I said "hes never said that to me" so she twisted it to "he's never said that" so i'm not too happy. I guess she talked to Mrs. Yemm and Heather.. so there's more negative energy... and then she "confronted" me in 2nd block. Not that i'm not pissed enough for being the only damn aid actually working her ass off. I mean i realize if i'm rearranging all the files they can't work with the files.. BUT THERE'S A WHOLE DAMN DRAMA DEPARTMENT TO HELP! I mean, I love Becca and Jason and Heather... but.. I just feel so used. I do everything in my god damn power to help everyone around me and everyone takes an takes.. but i never get back. And i don't do everything for something in return.. but a thank you every now and then wouldn't be minded.. you know.. acknowledgement goes far. Anyway, Becca and I got in this argument about her ex Mike... who happens to be a friend of mine. Lord forbid i befriend her ex, right? I don't know what happened between them. What happened between them is between them, I don't want to be involved, its not my place to be involved, I shouldn't have to be. But she's shoving me in that position. I don't know what happened,b ut I do know that becca's dad threatened to call the cops if mike called again, so for obvious reason, he doesnt' want becca to know he's back. He didn't really want anyone to know.. he only came back to two or three people to say "hey i'm here!" got a new job his on place, ya know. He asked me not to tell anyone that he was back.. so i promised... and I hate breaking my promises. I only break them if i feel its truly needed. I understand that she feels that I'm picking sides.. but.. i just don't want to be stuck in the middle again... *sighs* I guess Mrs. Yemm realized I was upset during 3rd.. cause she called me up.. and i just started bawling.. I'm so damn fustrated.. I mean, its between them. I want to stay friends to both of them. Why is she making me choose... if she makes me choose.. then i'll go to mike.. cause he's not doing this to me... its only her. We've only talked about her once... cause he wanted to know how she was doing. Thats it. I don't want to be dragged in the middle. Its not fair for me to be torn into two because becca is being greedy and wanting me to drop a friend because word says that he's saying things about her. Becca, I'm sorry that i'm not on your side..b ut i'm not on his either. I hate this. I really do. Its your problem with mike, not mine, leave me out of it. I promised not to give you his number, I'm not going to. If it is truly that important to you to get it.. then find it on your own. I'm not in this. I dont' care how much you hate me for it... but i'm through. I'm not dealing with either of you on the other. This is not my battle. It never has been. I don't want it to be. I'm still your friend and i'm always here for you.. but don't make me out to be the bad guy because your pissed that I'm not 100% on your side this time. I'm sorry Becca.. but your treating me the same way Jordan did.. like i'm your slacky.. and thats exactly what made me stop being her friend. Don't do that to me please.. just.. start treating me like i'm my own human being with my own feelings again.. is that too much to ask?