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I always used to think that I was going to have a problem in life finding a man to love, and to love me. But, I did swimmingly with that. No problem. Although we don't have a perfect relationship, it is really a great relationship. I love the boy. :)
But, who knew that it would actually be friendship that would be the thing that I just can't find? I just find it so wierd that I don't have a best friend.
Every girl should have at least that one other girl that they can go to and talk about everything with. Somebody that wont judge, but just to listen and agree with you and support you, (no matter how silly you are being!). I have no confidante, nobody to share my feelings with (except Jon, but that's in a different way.) Nobody to just hang out with and get away from life for a little while with.
It's hard, I mean, how do you find somebody like that at 25 years old? Most relationships like that are established earlier in life.
There have been a few people in my life that have truley accepted and understood me. But for some reason they either just dropped out of my life (Jill, Jamie) or speedbumps have set us back a few steps making us not close as we once were (Jessica, Beth), and the other is Jon.
Nobody else have I ever been able to just spill the real me - the good and the bad. And I fear, that I probabaly never will.