The Week
So we didn't end up going to the flea market last weekend, but i wasn't bummed cause I actually wanted to sleep in for a change. We ended up seeing Knocked Up on Saturday or Friday (can't remember). That was a hilarious movie! I was laughing the whole time. I really liked it because you could relate to all the characters. Nothing happened that was unbelievable or too far-fetched. It was really good, i'd recommend it.
I worked a lot this week, which is good beside the fact that I got a totally bogus check!!! Only $280! I have to survive that in 2 weeks...this isn't going to be very fun.
Journal Entry for 6-15-07:
Today seemed to be the hottest day in the year. But I wasn't worried. I had to work so I was in some really good air conditioning. I had to work with Nicole which wasn't too bad excep the fact that I'm bored to death. Had a mean over-the-phone customer yell at me for somethig that was well out of my control. I hate work. No, i DREAD work. I feel uncomfortable when I'm there. I feel like a bother. I have to pitch so much stuff, by the end of the transation every customr has a head full of Hollywood Video crap. MVP? Playguard? Concessions? Entertainment Weekly? Hell no! When people walk into a movie store, they think, "I want to rent a movie and wind down." They aren't looking for anyting we offer there. I hate it a lot. If we don't get the numbers they want, we're gone.
I want a root beer float. I'm hungry because I smoked. Actually that's basically all CJ and I do. if we run out of weed, we scrounge around our room or my bank account to buy weed. Tells you where our priorities are. We're young! Not! We just don't know what to do otherwise. I brought up the question fo whether or not he thought we wouldn't love each other if we didn't smoke all the time. I wasn't thiking anything would change I just wanted to know his reaction. He disagreed.
Journal Entry for 6-16-07:
Today I worked as well. it wasn't sooo bad. I was all happy-go-lucky there. I worked with Sebastian and that was cool. eric came by. I have to pick him up from work at 9:00pm tonight. I'm not really looking forward to that. I told CJ about it too but he doesn't look too thrilled about it either. Things are so differen't this week. Dave and Rachel are no longer together so CJ and I don't really have anywhere to hang out. Though, Rachel's in Santa Rosa now, having an excellent time. I'm so happy for her. She needed this. She's such a great person. It was hard saying goodbye to her again. CJ is humming right now. how adorable.
Journal Entry for 6-17-07:
Today started out great. i woke up and wasn't hot for once. Cj and my energy was really good too. We saw knocked up last night. It was great! I laughed a lot and the characters were all really belivable. Everytime CJ and I go on a date night, I start feeling really good about our relationship. It sort of renews it. Instead of sitting at home, watching movies or television or even hanging out with other people, we get "us" time. It feels really good. I wish we could have more date nights but things aren't 100% favorable. Too much wasting money on weed or alcohol. It's frustrating somtimes, but what can you do? Anyway, things were great last night. Today we woke up in the morning and started cuddling. today's fathers day, so we went to longs to get my dad a card to go with his present which is a Mr. Clean car washing thing. Rachel called saying she was in the area and needed help to get weed. She recently moved to Santa Rosa. We went to Sugars house. That was fun too. Rachel's cousin, Marisa, was there as well. She was kinda annoying. All she did was tell stories and brag. On the car-ride back, Cj's mood changed. Maybe it was me being paranoid but he just wasn't the same. We got home, laid down on the bed then decided to get active. Our Idea? Take Izzy to the Martinez Marina to walk her. We get there and it says no dogs everywhere. Bummer. I wasn't down or disapp9ointed though. We decided to relocate to Newhall Park. We are on our way and he starts clicking his tongue to "this is why i'm hot" I boint it out and turn up the radio. I can't exactly remember what happened but he ended up grabbing both of my wrists while i'm driving. this made me all kinds of uncomfortable because the hold he had on them was hard and reminded me of bad stuff.The mood definitely changed then. All I could muter was "that wasn't cool". We drove all the way to Calyton and couldn't find Newhall Parkway. By the time we were in Clayton, I wasn't even feeling it. So we ended up just going home. Now I'm disappointed. I want to go for a walk or something I don't know how to do so without my parents asking questions. I haven't talked to him since we got home.
Journal Entry for 6-18-07:
Worked today. it was alrightttt....the guy at the bank stared at me again. Everytime I go to the bank he makes a point to walk near me or something. He's nerdy though. And he's a BRIAN! I hate the name Brian. After I got home from work CJ reminded me that we were going to walk the Martinez Marina. Yesterday after I wrote that journal entry, we went for a walk to Baldwin Park. I talked to hima bout what I had been feeling [job-wise, financially, and excitement-wise]. We came to certain agreements. We're quitting smoking weed for awhile, doing something fun and active every day, and CJ's going to try harder to get a good job. I felt a lot better after that. he understood and promised me that he would try hard to fix it and make me happier. It was really nice. So first step was us officially quitting smoking for a couple of months or so. Then today we went to the Martinez Marina for a walk. We walked around the entire marina. We read all the signs and that interested me. We learned the history of th eMarina. ther ewas one sign telling about this boat that travelled from Alameda to China and Australia in 75 days. Sure enough, there was the skeleton of a boat in the water. i guess the captain beached it on some mudflats and it caught on fire. All you see is a bunch of wood sticking out of the water. j That was really cool. The whole experience was really good.
Journal Entry for 6-22-07:
Today was boring and kind of disappointing. I worked from 12-8 and that always sucks. i hate 8 hour shifts but looks as though i'm going to be needing a lot more. CJ and I planned all day to go to the movies and see 1408. We got our tickets early and even arrived 10 minutes early. Then we went to the snack place, got a huge bag of popcorn, candy, ice cream, and 2 sodas. We walked to the theater, and wouldn't you know it. There weren't any seats. We finally found a spot where it was like this:
[empty seat][empty seat][person][empty seat]
we asked the guy if anyone was sitting in the two seats and he implied that there's only a person sitting to the left of him. He didn't even offer to scoot over so we could have two seats. i was pretty angry. We ended up getting a refund, having our night be ruined, and have a gross amount of food to bring home and remind us of it. I was so disappointed. I texted Emma with the situation and I felt worse after doing so then to begin with. I wanted to vent to her because she's my best friend and that's what I do for her. I always help her with her shit. The one time I have a problem, I vent to her and she says two things.
1. "at least you have a boyfriend to make plans with"
2. "well maybe ur just better off doing at home night. im sorry sweetie but i have no sympathy for anyone tonight. i still love you though"
thanks emma. true friend.
CJ and I have maintained our active lifestyle though. We run around the block and take walks. We walked the Iron Horse Trail and that was tiring. My feet hurt but then again, we were our there for 2 hours waiting for Cj's 30 minute alarm to go off. Finally after walking to both ends, we walked back. It was tiring. My feet hurt so badly, and we then had to run afterwards as well.
I worked a lot this week, which is good beside the fact that I got a totally bogus check!!! Only $280! I have to survive that in 2 weeks...this isn't going to be very fun.
Journal Entry for 6-15-07:
Today seemed to be the hottest day in the year. But I wasn't worried. I had to work so I was in some really good air conditioning. I had to work with Nicole which wasn't too bad excep the fact that I'm bored to death. Had a mean over-the-phone customer yell at me for somethig that was well out of my control. I hate work. No, i DREAD work. I feel uncomfortable when I'm there. I feel like a bother. I have to pitch so much stuff, by the end of the transation every customr has a head full of Hollywood Video crap. MVP? Playguard? Concessions? Entertainment Weekly? Hell no! When people walk into a movie store, they think, "I want to rent a movie and wind down." They aren't looking for anyting we offer there. I hate it a lot. If we don't get the numbers they want, we're gone.
I want a root beer float. I'm hungry because I smoked. Actually that's basically all CJ and I do. if we run out of weed, we scrounge around our room or my bank account to buy weed. Tells you where our priorities are. We're young! Not! We just don't know what to do otherwise. I brought up the question fo whether or not he thought we wouldn't love each other if we didn't smoke all the time. I wasn't thiking anything would change I just wanted to know his reaction. He disagreed.
Journal Entry for 6-16-07:
Today I worked as well. it wasn't sooo bad. I was all happy-go-lucky there. I worked with Sebastian and that was cool. eric came by. I have to pick him up from work at 9:00pm tonight. I'm not really looking forward to that. I told CJ about it too but he doesn't look too thrilled about it either. Things are so differen't this week. Dave and Rachel are no longer together so CJ and I don't really have anywhere to hang out. Though, Rachel's in Santa Rosa now, having an excellent time. I'm so happy for her. She needed this. She's such a great person. It was hard saying goodbye to her again. CJ is humming right now. how adorable.
Journal Entry for 6-17-07:
Today started out great. i woke up and wasn't hot for once. Cj and my energy was really good too. We saw knocked up last night. It was great! I laughed a lot and the characters were all really belivable. Everytime CJ and I go on a date night, I start feeling really good about our relationship. It sort of renews it. Instead of sitting at home, watching movies or television or even hanging out with other people, we get "us" time. It feels really good. I wish we could have more date nights but things aren't 100% favorable. Too much wasting money on weed or alcohol. It's frustrating somtimes, but what can you do? Anyway, things were great last night. Today we woke up in the morning and started cuddling. today's fathers day, so we went to longs to get my dad a card to go with his present which is a Mr. Clean car washing thing. Rachel called saying she was in the area and needed help to get weed. She recently moved to Santa Rosa. We went to Sugars house. That was fun too. Rachel's cousin, Marisa, was there as well. She was kinda annoying. All she did was tell stories and brag. On the car-ride back, Cj's mood changed. Maybe it was me being paranoid but he just wasn't the same. We got home, laid down on the bed then decided to get active. Our Idea? Take Izzy to the Martinez Marina to walk her. We get there and it says no dogs everywhere. Bummer. I wasn't down or disapp9ointed though. We decided to relocate to Newhall Park. We are on our way and he starts clicking his tongue to "this is why i'm hot" I boint it out and turn up the radio. I can't exactly remember what happened but he ended up grabbing both of my wrists while i'm driving. this made me all kinds of uncomfortable because the hold he had on them was hard and reminded me of bad stuff.The mood definitely changed then. All I could muter was "that wasn't cool". We drove all the way to Calyton and couldn't find Newhall Parkway. By the time we were in Clayton, I wasn't even feeling it. So we ended up just going home. Now I'm disappointed. I want to go for a walk or something I don't know how to do so without my parents asking questions. I haven't talked to him since we got home.
Journal Entry for 6-18-07:
Worked today. it was alrightttt....the guy at the bank stared at me again. Everytime I go to the bank he makes a point to walk near me or something. He's nerdy though. And he's a BRIAN! I hate the name Brian. After I got home from work CJ reminded me that we were going to walk the Martinez Marina. Yesterday after I wrote that journal entry, we went for a walk to Baldwin Park. I talked to hima bout what I had been feeling [job-wise, financially, and excitement-wise]. We came to certain agreements. We're quitting smoking weed for awhile, doing something fun and active every day, and CJ's going to try harder to get a good job. I felt a lot better after that. he understood and promised me that he would try hard to fix it and make me happier. It was really nice. So first step was us officially quitting smoking for a couple of months or so. Then today we went to the Martinez Marina for a walk. We walked around the entire marina. We read all the signs and that interested me. We learned the history of th eMarina. ther ewas one sign telling about this boat that travelled from Alameda to China and Australia in 75 days. Sure enough, there was the skeleton of a boat in the water. i guess the captain beached it on some mudflats and it caught on fire. All you see is a bunch of wood sticking out of the water. j That was really cool. The whole experience was really good.
Journal Entry for 6-22-07:
Today was boring and kind of disappointing. I worked from 12-8 and that always sucks. i hate 8 hour shifts but looks as though i'm going to be needing a lot more. CJ and I planned all day to go to the movies and see 1408. We got our tickets early and even arrived 10 minutes early. Then we went to the snack place, got a huge bag of popcorn, candy, ice cream, and 2 sodas. We walked to the theater, and wouldn't you know it. There weren't any seats. We finally found a spot where it was like this:
[empty seat][empty seat][person][empty seat]
we asked the guy if anyone was sitting in the two seats and he implied that there's only a person sitting to the left of him. He didn't even offer to scoot over so we could have two seats. i was pretty angry. We ended up getting a refund, having our night be ruined, and have a gross amount of food to bring home and remind us of it. I was so disappointed. I texted Emma with the situation and I felt worse after doing so then to begin with. I wanted to vent to her because she's my best friend and that's what I do for her. I always help her with her shit. The one time I have a problem, I vent to her and she says two things.
1. "at least you have a boyfriend to make plans with"
2. "well maybe ur just better off doing at home night. im sorry sweetie but i have no sympathy for anyone tonight. i still love you though"
thanks emma. true friend.
CJ and I have maintained our active lifestyle though. We run around the block and take walks. We walked the Iron Horse Trail and that was tiring. My feet hurt but then again, we were our there for 2 hours waiting for Cj's 30 minute alarm to go off. Finally after walking to both ends, we walked back. It was tiring. My feet hurt so badly, and we then had to run afterwards as well.