Reaching out to this again......see if it helps...
It has been awhile since I have thought about LiveJournal. Not sure how many actually use this still but I guess this is good for me to branch out and express my feelings lately.
I have come a long way, left Jerry, got a place of my own, have the kids and also am in a relationship with John. Things at times go more bumpy then I would like them and I know I have to change my views for things to happen better. I get caught up in the anxiety and it is hard to stop the ego from telling me that things suck and I need to worry about them. I am sooo trying to think positive and somethings just sort of get stuck.
I was hoping to be somewhere else at this point in time, and maybe writing about it will bring it quicker to us.
I am hoping for some sanity into our lives and to be able to finally relax and not worry about things and how it will turn out. I am wanting the peace that comes from it and I need to ensure that my kids are not going to want either. I need to open my eyes and know what is around me and to see the clues and signs I need to get things going in our lives.
I need to start my art again, this has been something that has been on my mind and it is screaming at me. I need to get rid of the fear that nothing will happen from this and to know that I was given the gift of creativity and I should be using it to my best ability.
I need to meditate more and to focus on my inner thoughts and have the answers come to me more easily. I have to get unstuck and to know the universe is listening and wants us to be happy.
I need to get out more with my kids and to let them know that life is not just stress and being upset. You have to take it with stride and learn from the problems before you.
I need to just relax............and breathe
I have come a long way, left Jerry, got a place of my own, have the kids and also am in a relationship with John. Things at times go more bumpy then I would like them and I know I have to change my views for things to happen better. I get caught up in the anxiety and it is hard to stop the ego from telling me that things suck and I need to worry about them. I am sooo trying to think positive and somethings just sort of get stuck.
I was hoping to be somewhere else at this point in time, and maybe writing about it will bring it quicker to us.
I am hoping for some sanity into our lives and to be able to finally relax and not worry about things and how it will turn out. I am wanting the peace that comes from it and I need to ensure that my kids are not going to want either. I need to open my eyes and know what is around me and to see the clues and signs I need to get things going in our lives.
I need to start my art again, this has been something that has been on my mind and it is screaming at me. I need to get rid of the fear that nothing will happen from this and to know that I was given the gift of creativity and I should be using it to my best ability.
I need to meditate more and to focus on my inner thoughts and have the answers come to me more easily. I have to get unstuck and to know the universe is listening and wants us to be happy.
I need to get out more with my kids and to let them know that life is not just stress and being upset. You have to take it with stride and learn from the problems before you.
I need to just relax............and breathe