Umm things
So jesse is gone. Moving tomorrow to big rapids to pursue his dream. Honestly thats what this job really is to him. I feel like I should be sadder than I am. Maybe it hasnt sunk in yet that he is leaving and that I wont see him everyday and that we really arent together anymore. I mean its been 6 1/2 months and its been good. I cant complain. But I also feel kind of free. Like I can do whatever I want to do with out justifying it to another person. This is not in a self destructive kind of way but a I'm going to enjoy having a social life again kind of way I think. I will miss couples poker night...since I'm no longer part of a couple. But maybe right now I want some freedom and honestly it would take him moving two and a half hours away for that. Because he is comfortable and I dont think that we would have ever broken up for real without one of us going back to the other if he wasnt moving so far.
So hopefully this is for the best. I know that I am going to meet a lot of new sweet people in law school. I've already decided that I want to do some traveling and I think this is a good time in my life to do it. I like the idea of having some independence. But I wouldn't mind falling love...the kind of can breath, eat ,or sleep without thinking about that other person love...it would be nice to feel like that again.
So hopefully this is for the best. I know that I am going to meet a lot of new sweet people in law school. I've already decided that I want to do some traveling and I think this is a good time in my life to do it. I like the idea of having some independence. But I wouldn't mind falling love...the kind of can breath, eat ,or sleep without thinking about that other person love...it would be nice to feel like that again.