goodnight honey
lord tunderin jesis christ on a cross, quiting aint any easier than pimpin.ehe. someone says or doesn't say or does or doesn't do something and it for no reason at all hurts one of my feelings and it takes a good two hours before i realize that i'm not hurt, and i'm not being treated any worse than normal, i'm just going threw withdrawl. its weird how i act when things are gone. fuck a physical reaction, i mean losing it over everything. ev er y thang. reals. and not being the least bit tough or logicy or even nice. i mean, yall probably know me, so you know im always a freak out, least it's usually a decision. but sometimes i can't even control it. like when body wants nicotine.or heart wants past.brain doesnt even get a say. it makes me embarrassed to realise how much time i spend worrying about me. i'm not knowing when to shut up. and i'm also a fixator. i neeed to know why people leave. it's making me crazy.
and i shouldn't be thinking about myself.
my sisters good friend and her boyfriend died a while back when a drunk prick on the 104 crossed to their side of the road and hit them. he was sentenced to 7 years yesterday(i think it was yesterday)
canada am this morning said that he was sentenced to two 7year terms to be served consecutively.. so i donno if its 14 or 7 years. i guess its just 7.
i can't say i knew her, but ange seemed like a really sweet girl. always smiling. they were on their way to celebrate because they were finishing school or something and he'd asked her to marry him. her parents were fairly strict and i guess this was the first time they'd let her really go on a road trip without them(that's what my sister said a few years ago when it happened,at least)
http://www.cbc.ca/canada/nova-scotia/story/2007/01/23/cooper-jail.html
it makes me so angry and so fucking sad. she was just a baby. i'll pour some of my martini out for you. goodnight honey.
and i shouldn't be thinking about myself.
my sisters good friend and her boyfriend died a while back when a drunk prick on the 104 crossed to their side of the road and hit them. he was sentenced to 7 years yesterday(i think it was yesterday)
canada am this morning said that he was sentenced to two 7year terms to be served consecutively.. so i donno if its 14 or 7 years. i guess its just 7.
i can't say i knew her, but ange seemed like a really sweet girl. always smiling. they were on their way to celebrate because they were finishing school or something and he'd asked her to marry him. her parents were fairly strict and i guess this was the first time they'd let her really go on a road trip without them(that's what my sister said a few years ago when it happened,at least)
http://www.cbc.ca/canada/nova-scotia/story/2007/01/23/cooper-jail.html
it makes me so angry and so fucking sad. she was just a baby. i'll pour some of my martini out for you. goodnight honey.