not ready for Christmas...
I really don't think I'm ready for Christmas. I haven't even thought about decorating, sending Christmas cards, or the possibility of buying anybody presents yet (and on that end, I'm not sure how much I can afford... I got a two hundred dollar power bill today). Today was the first day it actually felt like Christmas is coming... and now that I've realized it's on it's way, it seems like I won't have near to enough time! I don't know when I'm going to have time to write those christmas letters... I don't know what (or how much) I'm going to spend on (whoever I might buy presents for... I have no idea). I don't even know if I'll have a chance to make those popcorn strands or decorate even a tiny coat hanger tree for myself...
Yeah, I'm really not prepared at all for Christmas. I only fully realized we're in the season today, and I know I won't have everything in order in time. I'm dreading the holiday coming because I have this bad feeling that it's going to pass like it did last year: no decoration, no celebration, no company, no thought. Last year it was just a day when all the stores were closed and all my friends were gone. If I don't decorate or do *something* soon, it's going to pass me by again.
In other news, the weekend can't arrive soon enough... at least I'll have a good Christmas party to attend...
[please excuse bad grammar/spelling. this quick update isn't worth my proof-read...]