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i dont know what to feel at the moment.
a mixture of hatred and anger and sadness.
im not sure why either.
jon and becky?
it seems to be true.
but im not sure.
i dont want to ring Kevin, ill wait til he phones, it'll give me a chance to calm down a bit maybe...or cry or something.
Im quite angry at jon, thats where the anger comes from, im not entirely sure why im angry at him, but i definately identify the anger being at him.
i think i hate the idea of them together.
and im sad that she'll be with him.
that he is "man" enough to be with her where i couldnt, thats the sadness.
maybe its not true? i have no proof but im pretty damn sure.
i wish you'd answer your phone.
love you
xx
a mixture of hatred and anger and sadness.
im not sure why either.
jon and becky?
it seems to be true.
but im not sure.
i dont want to ring Kevin, ill wait til he phones, it'll give me a chance to calm down a bit maybe...or cry or something.
Im quite angry at jon, thats where the anger comes from, im not entirely sure why im angry at him, but i definately identify the anger being at him.
i think i hate the idea of them together.
and im sad that she'll be with him.
that he is "man" enough to be with her where i couldnt, thats the sadness.
maybe its not true? i have no proof but im pretty damn sure.
i wish you'd answer your phone.
love you
xx