it's amanda
hello. i feel good today. very very good, comparitively. daren and i had a nice night last night. we saw a documentary on jandek at the egyptian. it was inspiring in a strange way. it made me feel really good in a strange way. i'm going to write to jandek - sterling smith - and buy everyone of his records. we will be friends. after the movie we ate at our raffalos and this little kid was there. he was so strange. he played some songs on the jukebox including prince's kiss and oh shit what was that other song???? it was so funny. he played it twice and came over to our table and said 'i picked those out special for your romantic evening'. ha. it made my day. then, we drove around for about 2 hours listening to music. we traveled on 6 freeways. the 405 the 10 the 110 the 5 the 134 and the 101. we went through hollywood, the strip, beverly hills, santa monica, downtown, silverlake, northridge, and back to my place... et cetera... et cetera. anyway, it felt good to get outside again and walk a little. it felt good to smile and laugh. it felt good to eat food again. it felt really good to be alive. and today i'm not wallowing. i don't feel like i'm waiting. i know it's comming and i know he's comming back and i know we can do it all over again. i know we can be happy if we want to be.
we put aphex twin track 4 on repeat. it made me feel so good. i remembered a time at niilo/tylers when i was laying on the couch all cozy int he morning and tyke was laying on me and it was a beautiful overcast day. beautiful beautiful. and, it felt like a dream. i was so happy. something about you guys and your house and tyke and fresno and soup and blankets and records and wood floors and old computers and drippy faucets. i told daren what i was thinking about and it was nice that we could share same sentiments. it was like we had traveled to another universe. we were no longer on the floor in my little 'studio' in los angeles alone. we were on that couch with tyke and friends and love.
boy do i sound dreamy.
anyway, all you fresnans... i may be in town the weekend. i may not be able to afford the commute... but, i'll see what i can do.
we put aphex twin track 4 on repeat. it made me feel so good. i remembered a time at niilo/tylers when i was laying on the couch all cozy int he morning and tyke was laying on me and it was a beautiful overcast day. beautiful beautiful. and, it felt like a dream. i was so happy. something about you guys and your house and tyke and fresno and soup and blankets and records and wood floors and old computers and drippy faucets. i told daren what i was thinking about and it was nice that we could share same sentiments. it was like we had traveled to another universe. we were no longer on the floor in my little 'studio' in los angeles alone. we were on that couch with tyke and friends and love.
boy do i sound dreamy.
anyway, all you fresnans... i may be in town the weekend. i may not be able to afford the commute... but, i'll see what i can do.