wow.. i havent updated in forever..
guess theres kinda a reason for that.. things have been super shitty lately. the mom n i are constantly at it anymore. no matter what i do to try to avoid conflict.. it always happens.
relationships are suffering severly with me.. n its my fault for pushing away... but seriously.. some ppl just really piss me off so fucking bad its not even funny.. like.. they say one thing.. n do the exact other.. n then they get mad at you if u dont do what THEY want u to with YOUR life.. but its ok for them to do the opposite of what they told you to do.. gah..
i dont feel like posting all this negitive shit.. hense is why i havent updated alot lately...
yesterday .. for the most part was pretty good though. my mini road trip/adventure.. learning the phrase "chicken weiner", singing jessies girl "why cant i find a WOOOman like that." ... fun fun.
grades came today.. mom flipped on me. even though they are better than last time. i was expecting that though. i been sleepin alot today.. also causing her to yell.. god.. n then she asks me why im crying? or why i wont talk to her? i told her its cuz she dont know when to stop. or when to leave me alone.. n shes like i do amanda!! n then she keeps at it.. just.. proving my point... but i dont say anything. why bother?
oh yeah. i have to work tomorrow. 4:30-close. gets me outta thehouse i guess.. but i really wanted to be able to do something with friends or something since i cant tonight. bleh... oh welli guess.
right now im too blank to care but.. heres an earlier thought of mine..
Why is it that guys always say that they care about you, but their actions dont? is it because they are afraid of what we might do? is it because they are cowards? i personally think its because they want sex. and when they cant get it, theyd rather not spend time with you...makes more sense to me than any other answer i could come up with...its unfortunate that all/most guys want to do is have sex. i mean, dont get me wrong..there is a right time and a place for everything. i think that when you actually get to know a person before having sex with them, you can think outside of the box more..outside of "oh my god hes awesome in bed" id rather think of if he is worth my time or not. younger guys dont know what they want. somedays they want just sex, the next day you are the love of their lives..and they wonder why we are moody all the time? its because we have to put up with that kind of bullshit. older men know what they want, verbalize it and know how to get it. when they are done, they let you know, they dont fuck around with your head calling you every other day just to see how youre doing. fuck that.
I deserve all the time in the world with someone if i want it. if they dont want it, then its their loss, not mine.... i dont want them to feel like they have to spend time with me just to get in my pants...if thats what you want..then fucking just grow some balls and say it, dont play games like a little fucking pussy.
relationships are suffering severly with me.. n its my fault for pushing away... but seriously.. some ppl just really piss me off so fucking bad its not even funny.. like.. they say one thing.. n do the exact other.. n then they get mad at you if u dont do what THEY want u to with YOUR life.. but its ok for them to do the opposite of what they told you to do.. gah..
i dont feel like posting all this negitive shit.. hense is why i havent updated alot lately...
yesterday .. for the most part was pretty good though. my mini road trip/adventure.. learning the phrase "chicken weiner", singing jessies girl "why cant i find a WOOOman like that." ... fun fun.
grades came today.. mom flipped on me. even though they are better than last time. i was expecting that though. i been sleepin alot today.. also causing her to yell.. god.. n then she asks me why im crying? or why i wont talk to her? i told her its cuz she dont know when to stop. or when to leave me alone.. n shes like i do amanda!! n then she keeps at it.. just.. proving my point... but i dont say anything. why bother?
oh yeah. i have to work tomorrow. 4:30-close. gets me outta thehouse i guess.. but i really wanted to be able to do something with friends or something since i cant tonight. bleh... oh welli guess.
right now im too blank to care but.. heres an earlier thought of mine..
Why is it that guys always say that they care about you, but their actions dont? is it because they are afraid of what we might do? is it because they are cowards? i personally think its because they want sex. and when they cant get it, theyd rather not spend time with you...makes more sense to me than any other answer i could come up with...its unfortunate that all/most guys want to do is have sex. i mean, dont get me wrong..there is a right time and a place for everything. i think that when you actually get to know a person before having sex with them, you can think outside of the box more..outside of "oh my god hes awesome in bed" id rather think of if he is worth my time or not. younger guys dont know what they want. somedays they want just sex, the next day you are the love of their lives..and they wonder why we are moody all the time? its because we have to put up with that kind of bullshit. older men know what they want, verbalize it and know how to get it. when they are done, they let you know, they dont fuck around with your head calling you every other day just to see how youre doing. fuck that.
I deserve all the time in the world with someone if i want it. if they dont want it, then its their loss, not mine.... i dont want them to feel like they have to spend time with me just to get in my pants...if thats what you want..then fucking just grow some balls and say it, dont play games like a little fucking pussy.