here i am, Lord.
Click to viewi am so...thankful. really. a few hours ago, i was still sorting out my to do honours or not decision. i know it's shocking because we're already 4 weeks into the semester. and i'm still struggling with my indecisiveness.
to cut the long story short, i managed to 'unload' my thoughts and worries to aman & wen (sorry ev about the noise). but both of them really made sense. and i know that this sounds very cliche, but i feel better after being 'listened to'. and i guess, only the girls can understand because i have a feeling that the aussies will encourage me to just drop honours. just a feeling, i could be wrong. and also just thinking about the WHOs-ville. we're after all, specks of dust too =) kinda puts things into perspective.
and then, i returned to my room to find concerned people (on msn) and also a video link that Irene shared on FB. and it's also the same song that Huiyi posted up on FB yesterday? so it was super cool. and to think that a primary school hymn can come back years later to encourage me in such a way.
so...i guess i just want to post this up to remind myself once again, miss sarah ko, that God has placed me here. God has made a way for me to do honours (provisionally, at least). this is where He has led me to, on the 22nd year of my life. thus, i shall not be an idiotic speck of dust and argue with the Creator and i shall just commit every step of the way to Him. whether or not i take honours eventually, i have chosen to commit my plans to God and what He does with them, is what He does with them. and i shall not fret about it.
goodnight. goodnight.