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[hotdork77]

this week has kinda sucked, i've been so dead. i'm happy though justin and i talked today, i dunno i guess i get paranoid about people ditching me or replaceing me.. and i was pretty bummed because i was afraid it was happening between me and him. i guess today just ment a lot because i relized Justin will never do that to me. i guess thats what makes a true friend, they love you through your annoyingness and mistakes. i dunno, this week alot of things have become a little clearer i think its because i'm tired. i tend to become more analytical and nostalgic. Mr.Heeres has taught me so much this year. about life, history, politics, love, and myself. i have to say some of its been painful, its made me re-evaluate some of my life i didn't want to think about. monsters in my closet... i dunno i think i'm getting to the stage in my tiredness where i start getting moody (its not P.M.S. i swear), some people have been grating on my nerves even though i know i love them deep down, and in philosophy i almost started crying during the movie we were watching, but man it was a sad movie. it just touched down on some of my deepest fears, not death but leaving people behind and people leaving me behind.... and now i'm back to the beginning of my entry, my head is spinning so many thoughts, so many worrys, so many dreams, so many hopes, so much pain...i'm getting so weary of life, i feel tired and old, i just don't know any more... well i guess i'm going to end this.
oh one last thing thanks Justin