I'm BAAAACK!!!
well,
I couldnt do it any longer i tried i really did, but im a very physical guy and i just couldnt do the long distance anymore... in a little over two months i havent even seen danny once save for one photo, so i decided to call it quits, for his benefit and my own, it was unfair for the both of us to stay attached with someone we may never get to see, while there are so many other guys around our areas that we could have a lot more in common with...
i dont know if what i did last night will help, or hinder my situation, but here goes..... in order to end things with danny in a way that wont leave him still wanting me, and in a way that he will never consider taking me back again... i told him that i had gotten drunk at a party and wound up cheating on him, now for those of you who know me you know that that is a highly probable and plausable situation, the only problem is that i didnt... i lied to him in order to make him hate me... and the thing is, al though i should feel guilty about it, i dont. im not sure if that means that my feelings for him werent as strong as i had thought or that im just a heartless bastard--dont answer that-- either way, i am now able to date around and possibly find someone in my area, one whom i can connect with more so than a long distance relationship, My friends tell me i need to "date around" which i will, maybe in doing so i will finally find that one guy that i have been looking for since i came out... maybe i will find the "ONE" ... great now i sound like fucking morpheus... i never should have watched matrix last night.....
I couldnt do it any longer i tried i really did, but im a very physical guy and i just couldnt do the long distance anymore... in a little over two months i havent even seen danny once save for one photo, so i decided to call it quits, for his benefit and my own, it was unfair for the both of us to stay attached with someone we may never get to see, while there are so many other guys around our areas that we could have a lot more in common with...
i dont know if what i did last night will help, or hinder my situation, but here goes..... in order to end things with danny in a way that wont leave him still wanting me, and in a way that he will never consider taking me back again... i told him that i had gotten drunk at a party and wound up cheating on him, now for those of you who know me you know that that is a highly probable and plausable situation, the only problem is that i didnt... i lied to him in order to make him hate me... and the thing is, al though i should feel guilty about it, i dont. im not sure if that means that my feelings for him werent as strong as i had thought or that im just a heartless bastard--dont answer that-- either way, i am now able to date around and possibly find someone in my area, one whom i can connect with more so than a long distance relationship, My friends tell me i need to "date around" which i will, maybe in doing so i will finally find that one guy that i have been looking for since i came out... maybe i will find the "ONE" ... great now i sound like fucking morpheus... i never should have watched matrix last night.....