To Whom This May Concern:
I wish things could go back to the way they were. I remember the look that made everything seem ok when everything was closing in on me. I miss your happiness. Your true smile. Our endless conversations of the same shit we've talked about a hundred times before. I miss long car rides filled with music, laughter, long glares and kisses when we switched drivers. I wish I could go back to the night when I hadn't seen you in over a month. We headed out late and got lost on that dark, endless road with nothing around us but a pitch black sky and stars. I remember laying in bed with you singing you Norah Jones "Come Away With Me."
I remember ignoring every word you said to me while we layed on the couch cause I was too busy watching the same old shit on tv. Or when we lied in bed and I watched tv while you tried to kiss me. I remember not listening to you tell me how unhappy you were and I didn't seem to care about anything but myself. I remember making you wait on me hand and foot and not appreciating a single thing you did for me. Yeah. I remember. Im paying for it now and I can't say I don't deserve it. I deserve every bit of it. The only explanation I can come up with is that I'm selfish. I'm a shitty person at times. I try to be in control when I'd rather you be. And when you try I push you away. I'm sorry. I can't take anything back. I can't change the past. All I can do is make our future together a site to see. Somewhere you actually want to be and be with me. (And no Im not trying to rhyme cause I know that's what would say)
I've fucked it up. It will never be the same. I've fucked the one thing up in my life that actually meant more to me than anything in this world besides the beautiful child we brought into this world together. Im a drag. You deserve better than me. You are better than me.
I remember ignoring every word you said to me while we layed on the couch cause I was too busy watching the same old shit on tv. Or when we lied in bed and I watched tv while you tried to kiss me. I remember not listening to you tell me how unhappy you were and I didn't seem to care about anything but myself. I remember making you wait on me hand and foot and not appreciating a single thing you did for me. Yeah. I remember. Im paying for it now and I can't say I don't deserve it. I deserve every bit of it. The only explanation I can come up with is that I'm selfish. I'm a shitty person at times. I try to be in control when I'd rather you be. And when you try I push you away. I'm sorry. I can't take anything back. I can't change the past. All I can do is make our future together a site to see. Somewhere you actually want to be and be with me. (And no Im not trying to rhyme cause I know that's what would say)
I've fucked it up. It will never be the same. I've fucked the one thing up in my life that actually meant more to me than anything in this world besides the beautiful child we brought into this world together. Im a drag. You deserve better than me. You are better than me.