Depression--it's miserable actually. It's quite like feeling the chemicals pool in my brain in all the wrong spots, and feeling the void of chemicals in the right spots. Physically. The body feels quite heavy and quite cold constantly, and it takes everything to get up and move somewhere else, even one room over. Lonely is the fear, the promise, ( Read more... )

Leah is coming up with "Leah is" statuses for facebook

I'm a freak.

I've kinda reached the end of the line...it's just time for me to move on and find some place I feel like I belong and am wanted.

Bringing it up with my "friends" returns only worse feelings of my personal inadequacy...

Somewhere, there are people that might understand.

I'm not being a bitch, you're being inconsiderate. It truly surprises me how little class you have.

Sing
With your head up
With your eyes closed
Not because you love the song
Because you love to sing
-Copeland

Or in my case--

Dance
With your head up
With your eyes wide
Not because you love the bitches you dance with or the completely slutty choreography
Because you love to dance

I am a failure...in the most pathetic sense of the word. Whoever said I hit the lowest of lows the other week was wrong, because the ship that is my life keeps sinking. I have no future direction, trying to get through the semester has resulted in endless shortcomings, and there is little remaining of the happy, care-free me of the summer ( Read more... )

Help, I have done it again ( Read more... )

Jordan only likes me because I can dance.

Fuck liking boys. Especially one I know I can't have. It's stupid to like someone that doesn't like you anyway...it only leads to awkwardness. So I shall quit before it even gets started. No one really knew anyway. I'll wait for guys to like me and then pick one that I feel confident in.

That is all.

I feel like such a failure when it comes to school.

I read, I do my work, I take notes, I do my best to comprehend, I feel like I know...and then after tests, I feel like a failure. A complete and utter failure.

Really, I find it charming, and I am very flattered that he chose to like me. Frankly, I like knowing that guys (despite how weird they are) find me attractive. However, I just don't want a guy. He's really got it all going for him too. He's very nice, considerate, and cavalier as guys go these days. He can cook, he's relatively clean, he's got a ( Read more... )