where is my instructions manual?

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i really wish a had patience at home. i'm tired of yelling at brennan pretty much every morning. he would be on time if he would just stop playing around. i just don't know what to do anymore. i try to step back and take a breath, but yeah, that sometimes doesn't work. i had this conversation with a friend of mine the other nite, he was commenting on how there is no instruction manual for parents, no one is taught how to be a parent. yet society feels they can still open their mouth and place blame in all certain areas. how now adays its abuse if you spank your child. well how come back in the day like when i was younger it was ok. and people wonder why children are the dominators in the family and walk all over their parents. if i'm not suppose to spank my child then how am i suppose to be the dominator. if i can't yell at my child then what do i do to get him to listen. oh wait there's always time out..... bull shit, kids these days are so damn smart, time out doesn't do shit. and if i go to the doctor, well let's just up his medicine. well fuck why not just sedate the child so that he just sits there and doesn't do a damn thing. i want my child to be an individual, i want my child to learn from his mistakes, i just wish i knew how to handle him.

sorry, had a rough start to the morning if you couldn't tell.