losing battle
can I change my natural set weight I'd I stay there long enough? Or am I destined to starve myself to keep me there?
I'm up in weight. fucking UP! 135.8. I can NOT go over 136. That's it, kids go back to school tomorrow. I'm feeling a little better. This weight is fucking coming off. Five measily pounds. I might even do one extra for good measure.
I'm so disappointed with myself. Thank God I have therapy today.
**update. My fucking van won't start. Which means that I could take the car, but the roads are icy, the tires aren't great, and I can't drive in it. So I'm missing my therapy. for the second time in a row. I'm going to lose my fucking mind.
***update dos. She called. And while insurance doesn't cover a phone consult she said it had been a while and she wanted to see how I was doing. an hour later I was done. I'm feeling a little better. Still upset but not feeling like I'm coming assist at the seams.