Today....
I had a dream about it being new years eve or something, and my two of my friends, Zela, and someone else that I can not recall, were in a convientient store and we were looking for something to eat. There was an Asian worker there, and we decided to buy some sake. Then he showed us some portable microwaving device. I stole it. Later on, we were about to leave, and there was a white feather on the ground. As I walked near it, it gravitated towards me and started to repeatedly hit my face. I was freaking out, but then the asain guy came out and told me to give him back his device. I tried to tell him that I didn't have it, but he had explained that the device also has it's own gravitational pull or something and that is why the feather was messing with my face. I then gave it back to him.
I later then woke up. I went outside to go smoke a cigarette, and I saw these two spiders.
Now, I have a little observation about this one spider near my door. I have been watching it for about two weeks now, and it hasn't moved or, I think even eaten for that same amount of time. It was isolating it'self and not taking care of it'self that whole time and I was amazed that it was still alive for that long. Yesturday, I went outside, and it was clinging on to a dead spider, holding on to its corpse. It was holding on to this dead, lifeless creature for hours when I opened the door again, and it lost its grasp, and its only companion fell lifeless on the ground. I felt bad, thinking that was its only thing it could hold on to and now, because of me, it has been taken away. Now it is alone.
So, this morning I went out to smoke and there was a much larger spider right next to the one that I have been observing. I was afraid that it was going to eat the spider that I have been caring about......but I watched. It crawled right up to it, and the much smaller spider that I have been caring about rushed at it and trying not to get eaten. Instead of letting nature take its course, I nocked down the bigger spider, which could have eaten my spider away.
Now, remember that I am arachniphobic, but for some reason I care about this spider. I was thinking about getting some tweezers and picking up the dead spider and giving it back to the other spider.
Later on this morning, I made some coffee that reminded me of cough syrup, and I choked on it for a little while and put it down the sink. I then went into my room and turned on the tv. There was a movie on comedy central with the guy that played an elf on lord of the rings, and a girl that had played Rose on Dr. Who. I was excited to see the girl that had once played Rose, and then I felt sad because I used to watched Dr. Who with Nathan all the time. He was the one that got me into that show. He dumped me, and ever since, I haven't got to watch it with him.
I then go to school. I worked out at the gym for a while there because I changed my enviromental science class to PE. I then went, sweating, to my psychology class. Then, later on I helped some foriegn students with my book.
I then was going to go to the car, when.....guess who called....Nathan. My heart skipped a beat when I answered the phone....then he told me that he was driking, and he needed a ride to the store. I then decided to do it since I needed to pick up some things from his house anyway. I had then picked up another friend too and we went to his house. He was upset with me because I told him that I messed around with my best friend in the time of grieving......just to hold a warm body in my arms again.........but it wasn't him....and I was sad.
I had then a a couple of beers then realized that I was having fun with him.....I was smiling.....but he still dumped me and broke my heart. I was just happy to see him in a way.....but it is not going to last forever. :( Once he sobers up, he will remember that he doesn't love me. He then took me to his room to go lay down, and I asked him if I should leave. He said no, and grabbed my arm and put it across his cheast. We laid there for a while. But then I had realized that my friend was by herself and I needed to go back to her.......honestly though.....I wish that I could have laid with him there forever. I then took her back to her home, and decided to go back to his house. I laid next to him and he went out to his couch and laid there by himself. *crush* goes my heart....just a little.....then I went back home.
I later then woke up. I went outside to go smoke a cigarette, and I saw these two spiders.
Now, I have a little observation about this one spider near my door. I have been watching it for about two weeks now, and it hasn't moved or, I think even eaten for that same amount of time. It was isolating it'self and not taking care of it'self that whole time and I was amazed that it was still alive for that long. Yesturday, I went outside, and it was clinging on to a dead spider, holding on to its corpse. It was holding on to this dead, lifeless creature for hours when I opened the door again, and it lost its grasp, and its only companion fell lifeless on the ground. I felt bad, thinking that was its only thing it could hold on to and now, because of me, it has been taken away. Now it is alone.
So, this morning I went out to smoke and there was a much larger spider right next to the one that I have been observing. I was afraid that it was going to eat the spider that I have been caring about......but I watched. It crawled right up to it, and the much smaller spider that I have been caring about rushed at it and trying not to get eaten. Instead of letting nature take its course, I nocked down the bigger spider, which could have eaten my spider away.
Now, remember that I am arachniphobic, but for some reason I care about this spider. I was thinking about getting some tweezers and picking up the dead spider and giving it back to the other spider.
Later on this morning, I made some coffee that reminded me of cough syrup, and I choked on it for a little while and put it down the sink. I then went into my room and turned on the tv. There was a movie on comedy central with the guy that played an elf on lord of the rings, and a girl that had played Rose on Dr. Who. I was excited to see the girl that had once played Rose, and then I felt sad because I used to watched Dr. Who with Nathan all the time. He was the one that got me into that show. He dumped me, and ever since, I haven't got to watch it with him.
I then go to school. I worked out at the gym for a while there because I changed my enviromental science class to PE. I then went, sweating, to my psychology class. Then, later on I helped some foriegn students with my book.
I then was going to go to the car, when.....guess who called....Nathan. My heart skipped a beat when I answered the phone....then he told me that he was driking, and he needed a ride to the store. I then decided to do it since I needed to pick up some things from his house anyway. I had then picked up another friend too and we went to his house. He was upset with me because I told him that I messed around with my best friend in the time of grieving......just to hold a warm body in my arms again.........but it wasn't him....and I was sad.
I had then a a couple of beers then realized that I was having fun with him.....I was smiling.....but he still dumped me and broke my heart. I was just happy to see him in a way.....but it is not going to last forever. :( Once he sobers up, he will remember that he doesn't love me. He then took me to his room to go lay down, and I asked him if I should leave. He said no, and grabbed my arm and put it across his cheast. We laid there for a while. But then I had realized that my friend was by herself and I needed to go back to her.......honestly though.....I wish that I could have laid with him there forever. I then took her back to her home, and decided to go back to his house. I laid next to him and he went out to his couch and laid there by himself. *crush* goes my heart....just a little.....then I went back home.