Stressed!
I am freaking out. Besides the fact that I am upset about Nathan breaking up with me, I was doing a little ok. I still miss him very much and wish I could talk to him because he was such a close friend to me, but he probably doesn't want to hear from me in a while because he broke my heart.
Psycology class was kinda neat today. I then later went to the first day of Enviromental Science class. The enviromental science class was a little enjoyable for the first hour because I learned new things, but then for the next two hours I realized that that was a lot of information for me to process, and that was a lot of notes that I took. It didn't really hit me that that was too much for me to handle until the end of class when the teacher told us that we have to read three chapters, and do another assignment by thursday, PLUS there is a test on the second day of class! I'm dropping that sucker, and taking a different class! FUCK THAT!
Then later on my friend came over and she wanted to smoke some herb in my room because she has no where else to go. I really miss smoking that stuff and wish I had some especially because I am so stressed out, but I cannot because I'm on probation, and I do not want to get into trouble when I am so close to being done with it. I am just kinda afraid that she will want to regulary come over and smoke it, and I think that would just be a terrible tease every time she comes over.
Then the mormons came over wanting to convert me, and I just do not want to deal with their pressure right now so I told them to go away. They are really nice, and I hope that I didn't hurt their feelings but I just do not want the extra stress right now.
I really wanted to take this one photography class, that seems very theraputic, where the students go to pretty places and take pictures, but I cannot afford a digital camera right now. Donations anyone? No you guys don't have to do that. Ug! I need love. Someone to hold. And a very particullar someone, but I understand that it is best that I stay away from him. I think I can be his friend though. But I will still be grieving for what I had with him. I cannot drink because I don't want to act all crazy, and it would interfere with my classes, so I cannot kill the pain with that. UG!
Psycology class was kinda neat today. I then later went to the first day of Enviromental Science class. The enviromental science class was a little enjoyable for the first hour because I learned new things, but then for the next two hours I realized that that was a lot of information for me to process, and that was a lot of notes that I took. It didn't really hit me that that was too much for me to handle until the end of class when the teacher told us that we have to read three chapters, and do another assignment by thursday, PLUS there is a test on the second day of class! I'm dropping that sucker, and taking a different class! FUCK THAT!
Then later on my friend came over and she wanted to smoke some herb in my room because she has no where else to go. I really miss smoking that stuff and wish I had some especially because I am so stressed out, but I cannot because I'm on probation, and I do not want to get into trouble when I am so close to being done with it. I am just kinda afraid that she will want to regulary come over and smoke it, and I think that would just be a terrible tease every time she comes over.
Then the mormons came over wanting to convert me, and I just do not want to deal with their pressure right now so I told them to go away. They are really nice, and I hope that I didn't hurt their feelings but I just do not want the extra stress right now.
I really wanted to take this one photography class, that seems very theraputic, where the students go to pretty places and take pictures, but I cannot afford a digital camera right now. Donations anyone? No you guys don't have to do that. Ug! I need love. Someone to hold. And a very particullar someone, but I understand that it is best that I stay away from him. I think I can be his friend though. But I will still be grieving for what I had with him. I cannot drink because I don't want to act all crazy, and it would interfere with my classes, so I cannot kill the pain with that. UG!