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Hello, good evening.
Today has been different. I feel quite empty today, things have passed me by without me really taking them in and considering them. I had the chance to sit and think and as I thought, I ended up crying in the garden with half a marlboro packet and rubbish smelly matches.
What a sad moment.
I thought about my mum's wedding, craig, uni, september the 11th, you know just general negative things. I found some molten brown rose hand stuff and it smells so lovely, that cheered me up. I called Gordon and had a cry down the phone to him because I am in my house tonight and he made me feel abit better. This has just been a sad day, I went up to the church tonight and saw some of my little girls, there is a lovely girl called sophie that goes there, she's tiny and really polite. I can't wait to have my own, I'll put flowers in their hair and let them play games in the garden and let them have a wonderful imagination.
Yes that will be good. Not yet though, I'm not quite ready for it, life and that.
Tomorow I will try and be positive. I sound so stupid, sorry. I will be positive. I have a few classes and a bottle of wine :)
Lovely.
Today has been different. I feel quite empty today, things have passed me by without me really taking them in and considering them. I had the chance to sit and think and as I thought, I ended up crying in the garden with half a marlboro packet and rubbish smelly matches.
What a sad moment.
I thought about my mum's wedding, craig, uni, september the 11th, you know just general negative things. I found some molten brown rose hand stuff and it smells so lovely, that cheered me up. I called Gordon and had a cry down the phone to him because I am in my house tonight and he made me feel abit better. This has just been a sad day, I went up to the church tonight and saw some of my little girls, there is a lovely girl called sophie that goes there, she's tiny and really polite. I can't wait to have my own, I'll put flowers in their hair and let them play games in the garden and let them have a wonderful imagination.
Yes that will be good. Not yet though, I'm not quite ready for it, life and that.
Tomorow I will try and be positive. I sound so stupid, sorry. I will be positive. I have a few classes and a bottle of wine :)
Lovely.