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[hornyheatherho]

I just fucking ripped my heart out and my fucking computer blanked and I lost my entry. Maybe that is a sign? What am I NOT supposed to be coming to enlightening realizations via discourse with myself? Is what I concluded not the truth? Or just not to be shared among friends and others? Motherfucker! Now my head is spinning even worse than it was before... goddamned heart beating... Just like The Telltale Heart by Edgar Allen Poe...
Like fucking water torture already. I feel like Betty Crocker...who the hell am I kidding? Where is my man to love me, use me, calm my fears and help simplify my thoughts...