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Oh my god. I need a break. SO. BAD. School will be done and over with as of June 13 (a Friday! Yay!) but in the meantime, I can't even see the end. I am climbing up an enormous mountain and the summit is in the clouds. Big black clouds full of rain and lightning and scary thunder. I'm making an animatronic Big Bad Wolf mask for my graduate project, and it's going very slowly. I started last semester, but hit a huge bump when the shop supervisor THREW IT OUT over the break! I just have no confidence in my abilities or talent and don't think I'll finish, or at least if I do finish that the project will look like a piece of shit.
Uhhg I'm just so frustrated and stressed out, and now that summer is here I'm losing motivation every day. I just want to go to the beach! Run around in the sun and have fun! I HATE being in school when I know how I can feel outside. ALSO, my school is the biggest crock of shit ever invented. I have received a terrible education. My teachers are wallowing and directionless, and our academic advisor is worthless. WORTHLESSSS!!! Everyone is so pessimistic and irate over our shared situation, and any of us will be lucky to get a job. It's just so depressing to think about. I don't even know what I want to do with my life.
To top it all off, my boyfriend that I finally "broke up" with doesn't seem to know the meaning of "broken up." I told him that we spend too much time together and that we're in different mindsets, and I've lost all patience with him and he stresses me out with all his problems that he's constantly complaining about. Well, now that we're not official, basically nothing has changed. And he gets upset when I act mean towards him, even though I told him that just being around him makes me cranky. Did you forget that we BROKE UP??? I don't understand why he still keeps coming over constantly and trying to hang out almost just as much as we used to. Damn, I need to smoke.
Uhhg I'm just so frustrated and stressed out, and now that summer is here I'm losing motivation every day. I just want to go to the beach! Run around in the sun and have fun! I HATE being in school when I know how I can feel outside. ALSO, my school is the biggest crock of shit ever invented. I have received a terrible education. My teachers are wallowing and directionless, and our academic advisor is worthless. WORTHLESSSS!!! Everyone is so pessimistic and irate over our shared situation, and any of us will be lucky to get a job. It's just so depressing to think about. I don't even know what I want to do with my life.
To top it all off, my boyfriend that I finally "broke up" with doesn't seem to know the meaning of "broken up." I told him that we spend too much time together and that we're in different mindsets, and I've lost all patience with him and he stresses me out with all his problems that he's constantly complaining about. Well, now that we're not official, basically nothing has changed. And he gets upset when I act mean towards him, even though I told him that just being around him makes me cranky. Did you forget that we BROKE UP??? I don't understand why he still keeps coming over constantly and trying to hang out almost just as much as we used to. Damn, I need to smoke.