We could be up in the clouds
I feel inadequate. The me others see isn't one who wears his heart on his sleeve. Although I'm sure I've revealed almost all of the various sides of me to others, but in the end, it's still an "almost all". I can't be completely true to the people around me, and there's a part of me that I've concealed really, really well. Something that, if revealed, will change my relationships with everyone around me. In fact, it will change everything. And I'm fighting a hard battle against this side of me which lingers and persists day and night. I'd rather not think of the consequences of unleashing this potentially destructive me, and honestly, I really don't know how dark this side of me can possibly get. I'm scared of myself when I think about it. Just know that I'm trying my best to turn this side of me into nothing more than a faint memory. Honestly, if there was anyone out there who could literally read my mind, I'd have been screwed a long time ago.
On a lighter note, I met Hui Jie at the canteen this morning. And we talked about the 'O' Level Mother Tongue exam. The results for the exam will be released really soon, maybe even tomorrow or on Friday. I wouldn't call it a "make it or break it" exam, because I'm entitled to a second try at the end of the year if I fall short of the A grade this time round. But of course, it'd be better if I wouldn't need to retake it. Right now, my nerves would tingle whenever the thought of not being able to make it forms in my head. But no matter the outcome, I'll be fine, unless I get a Pass for the oral component or something - that will defeat the purpose of retaking the exam, because my hopes of getting an A the next time round would practically be reduced to zilch. But I just know that I'll be fine somehow, even if I do get a Pass.
Studied a little Chemistry after school in the library today. Actually, school ended an hour earlier for my class today because Mdm Yanti wasn't able to take us for the last period. Was pretty productive, I guess. Though I got my umbrella stolen. That might seem random, but it's not. Long story.
Christon asked me why I didn't go for this study group with the cell group members yesterday. Actually, I didn't even know about it. I asked Tay Xi to double check and it turns out that Jordan, who didn't have my number, was the one who sent the invitation message, but he told the recipients to notify me as well. I feel relieved - it's still the thought that counts. I wouldn't be able to make it anyway, was already scheduled to study with the usual group earlier. ;)
Chemistry test tomorrow, English oral exam on Friday. There's so many walls to break (and so many bridges to burn, too).
On a lighter note, I met Hui Jie at the canteen this morning. And we talked about the 'O' Level Mother Tongue exam. The results for the exam will be released really soon, maybe even tomorrow or on Friday. I wouldn't call it a "make it or break it" exam, because I'm entitled to a second try at the end of the year if I fall short of the A grade this time round. But of course, it'd be better if I wouldn't need to retake it. Right now, my nerves would tingle whenever the thought of not being able to make it forms in my head. But no matter the outcome, I'll be fine, unless I get a Pass for the oral component or something - that will defeat the purpose of retaking the exam, because my hopes of getting an A the next time round would practically be reduced to zilch. But I just know that I'll be fine somehow, even if I do get a Pass.
Studied a little Chemistry after school in the library today. Actually, school ended an hour earlier for my class today because Mdm Yanti wasn't able to take us for the last period. Was pretty productive, I guess. Though I got my umbrella stolen. That might seem random, but it's not. Long story.
Christon asked me why I didn't go for this study group with the cell group members yesterday. Actually, I didn't even know about it. I asked Tay Xi to double check and it turns out that Jordan, who didn't have my number, was the one who sent the invitation message, but he told the recipients to notify me as well. I feel relieved - it's still the thought that counts. I wouldn't be able to make it anyway, was already scheduled to study with the usual group earlier. ;)
Chemistry test tomorrow, English oral exam on Friday. There's so many walls to break (and so many bridges to burn, too).