There's a tiny little ray of optimism inside of me. You see, everything starts in October.
I think
n0thingman is the only person who really understands this, although I've talked with
pghwob about it some. I don't know that I could really explain it if I tried, so you'll simply have to take it on faith: everything starts in October.
Now, to be fair, sometimes the things that start are actually endings.
Last October was the beginning of the end with Rob.
The October before that was the beginning and the end of Hipster.
The October before that was the beginning of the end with H.W.S.R.N., although I didn't know it at the time.
And it's not just about romantic relationships. October was the beginning of the Hope and Heroin show (well, actually, it was today, September 30th, the anniversary of James Dean's death, but it went from a one time thing to a serious problem in October). October was when I got Opie. Actually, I think October was also when I got Jacob and Tino, albeit four years later. October was also when I lost my Stoney. But regardless the specifics, the seeds of the year to come are always sown in October.
Tonight I went to Hunan Kitchen for some food. And when I opened my fortune cookie, I received the following message: "A golden egg of opportunity falls into your lap this month." Everything starts in October.