Misplaced
I almost forgot all about this journal. No one reads this, but me anyway...
So to catch up on this year. Here are the highlights:
January: There's something heart wrenching-lonely about new years eve when you have no one to share it wirh.
Working full time at the Antique store. Working hard. I couldn't leave for my trip to b-ham because of the storm and so my older boss took me out for a drink. Martinis are my thing. Fruity. As soon as tomorrow had come I was on my way to b-ham to see Legion, Comeback Kid and Madball.
Laid in bed and talked to Ana. Boy chats. Being a hermit. The usual.
Called the boys to see what they were up to. They had a small window before set up and one of them was "in a meeting". Met up with them at the venue. It was like X-mas. The coldest I've been, but with the warmest of people. There is something about the way you look at me. I get butterflies. This was the first time I had seen snow since 1995. Chinese Buddha.
The show plays on. He couldn't look at me while he was in the "act". I'm not quite sure what that means.
We head to the bar. Things start off slow in a small circle in the dark corner. Most of them leave.
He and I get a moment to talk. He asks "do you want a boyfriend?" I respond with "I'm not sure. I just want someone to hang out with." He said "good answer". "I want to hang out with you outside of tour." This seems like a dream. A song they had picked comes on and we slow dance in front of the jukebox. I couldn;t stop giggling. I could have been there forever.
Waffle House. "waffle house has browns are vegan." We all pile into the car. I'm sandwiched inbetween the "two hottest dudes I know" . We stop at a gas station on the way to the hotel so Ana could get cigarettes. Meanwhile Ruben, their friend who wanted to vacation, tells us a story about his crazy ex-girlfriend. I wish I remembered most of it because it was a damn good story. Laughing almost into tears, but almost murdering someone shouldn't be funny. "Is this real life?"
We stop at the hotel and hug goodbye. He catches me on the side of the car and goes in for a cold kiss. I kind of had to pull away. On the other side of the car I hear "is there some high school shit going on over there?". Best night!
So to catch up on this year. Here are the highlights:
January: There's something heart wrenching-lonely about new years eve when you have no one to share it wirh.
Working full time at the Antique store. Working hard. I couldn't leave for my trip to b-ham because of the storm and so my older boss took me out for a drink. Martinis are my thing. Fruity. As soon as tomorrow had come I was on my way to b-ham to see Legion, Comeback Kid and Madball.
Laid in bed and talked to Ana. Boy chats. Being a hermit. The usual.
Called the boys to see what they were up to. They had a small window before set up and one of them was "in a meeting". Met up with them at the venue. It was like X-mas. The coldest I've been, but with the warmest of people. There is something about the way you look at me. I get butterflies. This was the first time I had seen snow since 1995. Chinese Buddha.
The show plays on. He couldn't look at me while he was in the "act". I'm not quite sure what that means.
We head to the bar. Things start off slow in a small circle in the dark corner. Most of them leave.
He and I get a moment to talk. He asks "do you want a boyfriend?" I respond with "I'm not sure. I just want someone to hang out with." He said "good answer". "I want to hang out with you outside of tour." This seems like a dream. A song they had picked comes on and we slow dance in front of the jukebox. I couldn;t stop giggling. I could have been there forever.
Waffle House. "waffle house has browns are vegan." We all pile into the car. I'm sandwiched inbetween the "two hottest dudes I know" . We stop at a gas station on the way to the hotel so Ana could get cigarettes. Meanwhile Ruben, their friend who wanted to vacation, tells us a story about his crazy ex-girlfriend. I wish I remembered most of it because it was a damn good story. Laughing almost into tears, but almost murdering someone shouldn't be funny. "Is this real life?"
We stop at the hotel and hug goodbye. He catches me on the side of the car and goes in for a cold kiss. I kind of had to pull away. On the other side of the car I hear "is there some high school shit going on over there?". Best night!