laying motionless
So I've been contemplating why am I so irritable.
Is it my skin? I've been breaking out more than I'd like. If things go as planned my face needs to be flawless by march. Also, I've been letting all my hair grow out. It's pretty gross what an au naturale body looks like. I'm just doing it so I can wax everything and its less to deal with. TMI, but whatever. I don't have a filter on this mouth. My skin is so sensitive. Everytime I shave I get all kinds of razor burn and cuts. Ugh.
Is it my job? Work has been very slow. I am so unmotivated whenever I come in. It's past that year point and 2 of my jobs and it's no longer "shiny and new". Also, I have absolutely no creative outlet. I think my work has drained my creativity. I need to find something to do on the side.
Is it my social life? Well, lack there of. It's hard work being social...and sometimes expensive. Like, who the fuck shows up to dinner with no money? I can't continue friendships with most people. It's exhausting always putting more in than what I get back. I am not talking about in a "who is paying for dinner?" kind of way, but actually making the effort to keep in contact. Don't talk to me when I'm the last resort or when it's "convenient' for you.
Is it my home life? I've said it a million times. I can't get any damn silence around here. Sure it's 3AM now, but I can hear people drag racing down the street and shortly my neighbors are going to fire up their shitty honda civic w/ no exhaust and take their sweet time brrnttttttttt-ing around the neighborhood. I wish I could acquire some sort of pass or permit to legally kill someone. I would do a great job exterminating people who are a drain on society such as my neighbors.
Ill get over this. I just hope I don't lose my cool during this 55hour work week.
Is it my skin? I've been breaking out more than I'd like. If things go as planned my face needs to be flawless by march. Also, I've been letting all my hair grow out. It's pretty gross what an au naturale body looks like. I'm just doing it so I can wax everything and its less to deal with. TMI, but whatever. I don't have a filter on this mouth. My skin is so sensitive. Everytime I shave I get all kinds of razor burn and cuts. Ugh.
Is it my job? Work has been very slow. I am so unmotivated whenever I come in. It's past that year point and 2 of my jobs and it's no longer "shiny and new". Also, I have absolutely no creative outlet. I think my work has drained my creativity. I need to find something to do on the side.
Is it my social life? Well, lack there of. It's hard work being social...and sometimes expensive. Like, who the fuck shows up to dinner with no money? I can't continue friendships with most people. It's exhausting always putting more in than what I get back. I am not talking about in a "who is paying for dinner?" kind of way, but actually making the effort to keep in contact. Don't talk to me when I'm the last resort or when it's "convenient' for you.
Is it my home life? I've said it a million times. I can't get any damn silence around here. Sure it's 3AM now, but I can hear people drag racing down the street and shortly my neighbors are going to fire up their shitty honda civic w/ no exhaust and take their sweet time brrnttttttttt-ing around the neighborhood. I wish I could acquire some sort of pass or permit to legally kill someone. I would do a great job exterminating people who are a drain on society such as my neighbors.
Ill get over this. I just hope I don't lose my cool during this 55hour work week.