Survey from Erin's blog
Surveys can be good writing prompts!
-The best thing you cooked last week?
I think the best thing I cooked was the corn cake. Not because it was an exciting new recipe, but I loved the presentation of it. It wasn't even really that thrilling, but it felt good to me to think of doing something different - not just 13x9 pan, but thinking of a way to use the cute foil star-shaped pans and doing something different.
-If money, time and babysitting were no object, where would you go and with who? Whom, please.
I would do the European tour. I would like to take Emily the most. If she is afraid we would drive each other batty I would add another friend apiece. I would have trouble at this point choosing between Gill and Deanna as the additional traveling companion. Maybe I would just have to choose Erin, to settle it because I know she wants to go to Ireland as much as I do. I would maybe have to choose the person who would be the most patient while I read every card I want to in every display in every museum....or would be willing to go shopping with Emily while I read things that are boring to most people. I don't care to go shopping too much and I know Emily will want to do a lot of it so we will need people to balance us out. If we went with my health in my current condition we would need people who are willing to let me take things slowly,yet understand underneath this fat body there is an incredibly hyper woman.
-Five things you were doing ten years ago...
I think that was right before I left the bank so I was still working in banking.
I had a five year old boy in either day care or kindergarten, and Emily was probably in fourth grade in the dedicated GT program.
I had just purchased my house.
I had guests from Finland who spoke no English come stay with me for three weeks!
I was still very actively Mormon at that time.
-Five things on your to do list today
Go pick up Michael in Indianapolis
Take a shower and get dressed
Finish cleaning the kitchen
Treat myself to some type of delectable food.
Bring in the paper and look at the Target ad
-Five favorite snacks
Tomato Juice
Ghiradelli mint squares
Cheetos
graham crackers
green grapes
-Five bad habits
picking the skin around my nails
chewing ice
not wearing a coat and then bitching about how much I hate winter and how cold I am
leaving trash in my car
leaving my shoes around the house
-Five favorite foods
Mashed potatoes
Chocolate cake with chocolate frosting
cheesecake
CHICKEN, CHICKEN, CHICKEN (Did I mention I like chicken?)
broccoli
-Top Five places I've been
Disneyworld
Moab, Utah/ Arches National Park
Grand Canyon
Las Vegas
Chicago
-Five favorite memories
This one is an entry by itself:
Disneyworld trip with Emily and Michael in 2004
Hike up to Delicate Arch
Grand Canyon trip
High School trip to Florida
My private trip to Florida
Next one is to write 6 truths about myself:
Another one that should be a long entry or six and why is this one six and the rest are five?
I am a strange mixture of completely lazy and hyper-activity and I don't even understand it myself. I think it drives my children crazy. No one knows what to expect of me or what I expect of them and I don't know either.
I am a fabulous cook and baker and I love my own cooking. I am in the same boat as Erin. If I didn't cook so well, I'd be thinner. I can't say "skinny again," just thinner.
I judge myself fairly harshly in that I feel I have really not achieved my full potential in any way. I think I should have written books, mastered instruments and singing, created amazing works of art, been an award-winning actress and maybe a few other things. Even if I have to have a real job, I should be CEO and not "just" an employee. I am trying to appreciate the things I have done well. I am a good cook. I am a good parent. I express my creativity in my crafts. I am generous. I am a good friend. But I still have this "not good enough" vibe in my head a lot. That is one reason the church is not a safe place for me. It constantly reinforced the negative vibe.
I hurt most of the time. I am pretty much in some kind of constant physical pain or discomfort. I don't like to talk about it because I think it is petty compared to people who are suffering real disease like cancer or MS or whatever, but it makes it so hard to do all the things I think I want to do or should do. That is one reason I have my ten or fifteen minute system. So I can rest physically in between things. I know this should get better if I get my health back in check but in the short term it really, really sucks. It makes it harder to exercise and get to the long term when right here and now it just plaint HURTS. I think Michael is the only one I really talk to about it, maybe Emily some. I don't really think it's their responsibility to take care of me, but I would like them to understand maybe why sometimes my behavior seems erratic or I am so irritable.
Sometimes I don't know if I ever want to have a partner/ husband in life or not. I think about it. I would like to have more sex, but I have become so accustomed to doing what I want on my terms that I don't know if I could really adjust to considering anyone else's needs. I love Michael to death, and I miss him when he's gone, but I also treasure the times I am alone and I don't have to think about making sure his needs are met. Sometimes I think if I did have a partner it would have to be a firefighter or a pilot where he would be here only half the time and then gone half the time so I could have time to myself! Also he would either have to have no stuff or have enough money so we could have a place with more space right away because I love my little house and there is no more room for anyone else in here. I am even trying to get rid of more of the crap we already have!
Truth number six.
Hmmm... I was thinking about it yesterday as I was waiting for Scarlett to come. See her picture here: http://www.womeninspire.org/members/scarlettwinters/scarlettwinters.php
I have always had extremely physically beautiful friends. ALWAYS. EVERYBODY. I am not kidding, and I am a little jealous or covetous of their physical beauty. Growing up, going to to college, working with, hanging out with Lu, Kim, Lisa, Deanna, Gill, Stephanie, countless others.... I have always been the short, fat, snaggle-toothed friend who gets asked, "Can you introduce me to your friend?" And you know - how many times you get told you have inner beauty and pretty eyes, it still matters, it really does.
The end. Time to go work some more on the kitchen.
-The best thing you cooked last week?
I think the best thing I cooked was the corn cake. Not because it was an exciting new recipe, but I loved the presentation of it. It wasn't even really that thrilling, but it felt good to me to think of doing something different - not just 13x9 pan, but thinking of a way to use the cute foil star-shaped pans and doing something different.
-If money, time and babysitting were no object, where would you go and with who? Whom, please.
I would do the European tour. I would like to take Emily the most. If she is afraid we would drive each other batty I would add another friend apiece. I would have trouble at this point choosing between Gill and Deanna as the additional traveling companion. Maybe I would just have to choose Erin, to settle it because I know she wants to go to Ireland as much as I do. I would maybe have to choose the person who would be the most patient while I read every card I want to in every display in every museum....or would be willing to go shopping with Emily while I read things that are boring to most people. I don't care to go shopping too much and I know Emily will want to do a lot of it so we will need people to balance us out. If we went with my health in my current condition we would need people who are willing to let me take things slowly,yet understand underneath this fat body there is an incredibly hyper woman.
-Five things you were doing ten years ago...
I think that was right before I left the bank so I was still working in banking.
I had a five year old boy in either day care or kindergarten, and Emily was probably in fourth grade in the dedicated GT program.
I had just purchased my house.
I had guests from Finland who spoke no English come stay with me for three weeks!
I was still very actively Mormon at that time.
-Five things on your to do list today
Go pick up Michael in Indianapolis
Take a shower and get dressed
Finish cleaning the kitchen
Treat myself to some type of delectable food.
Bring in the paper and look at the Target ad
-Five favorite snacks
Tomato Juice
Ghiradelli mint squares
Cheetos
graham crackers
green grapes
-Five bad habits
picking the skin around my nails
chewing ice
not wearing a coat and then bitching about how much I hate winter and how cold I am
leaving trash in my car
leaving my shoes around the house
-Five favorite foods
Mashed potatoes
Chocolate cake with chocolate frosting
cheesecake
CHICKEN, CHICKEN, CHICKEN (Did I mention I like chicken?)
broccoli
-Top Five places I've been
Disneyworld
Moab, Utah/ Arches National Park
Grand Canyon
Las Vegas
Chicago
-Five favorite memories
This one is an entry by itself:
Disneyworld trip with Emily and Michael in 2004
Hike up to Delicate Arch
Grand Canyon trip
High School trip to Florida
My private trip to Florida
Next one is to write 6 truths about myself:
Another one that should be a long entry or six and why is this one six and the rest are five?
I am a strange mixture of completely lazy and hyper-activity and I don't even understand it myself. I think it drives my children crazy. No one knows what to expect of me or what I expect of them and I don't know either.
I am a fabulous cook and baker and I love my own cooking. I am in the same boat as Erin. If I didn't cook so well, I'd be thinner. I can't say "skinny again," just thinner.
I judge myself fairly harshly in that I feel I have really not achieved my full potential in any way. I think I should have written books, mastered instruments and singing, created amazing works of art, been an award-winning actress and maybe a few other things. Even if I have to have a real job, I should be CEO and not "just" an employee. I am trying to appreciate the things I have done well. I am a good cook. I am a good parent. I express my creativity in my crafts. I am generous. I am a good friend. But I still have this "not good enough" vibe in my head a lot. That is one reason the church is not a safe place for me. It constantly reinforced the negative vibe.
I hurt most of the time. I am pretty much in some kind of constant physical pain or discomfort. I don't like to talk about it because I think it is petty compared to people who are suffering real disease like cancer or MS or whatever, but it makes it so hard to do all the things I think I want to do or should do. That is one reason I have my ten or fifteen minute system. So I can rest physically in between things. I know this should get better if I get my health back in check but in the short term it really, really sucks. It makes it harder to exercise and get to the long term when right here and now it just plaint HURTS. I think Michael is the only one I really talk to about it, maybe Emily some. I don't really think it's their responsibility to take care of me, but I would like them to understand maybe why sometimes my behavior seems erratic or I am so irritable.
Sometimes I don't know if I ever want to have a partner/ husband in life or not. I think about it. I would like to have more sex, but I have become so accustomed to doing what I want on my terms that I don't know if I could really adjust to considering anyone else's needs. I love Michael to death, and I miss him when he's gone, but I also treasure the times I am alone and I don't have to think about making sure his needs are met. Sometimes I think if I did have a partner it would have to be a firefighter or a pilot where he would be here only half the time and then gone half the time so I could have time to myself! Also he would either have to have no stuff or have enough money so we could have a place with more space right away because I love my little house and there is no more room for anyone else in here. I am even trying to get rid of more of the crap we already have!
Truth number six.
Hmmm... I was thinking about it yesterday as I was waiting for Scarlett to come. See her picture here: http://www.womeninspire.org/members/scarlettwinters/scarlettwinters.php
I have always had extremely physically beautiful friends. ALWAYS. EVERYBODY. I am not kidding, and I am a little jealous or covetous of their physical beauty. Growing up, going to to college, working with, hanging out with Lu, Kim, Lisa, Deanna, Gill, Stephanie, countless others.... I have always been the short, fat, snaggle-toothed friend who gets asked, "Can you introduce me to your friend?" And you know - how many times you get told you have inner beauty and pretty eyes, it still matters, it really does.
The end. Time to go work some more on the kitchen.