what to do now
So much riding on the next three months. I've gotten too used to this whole "come what may" mindset I picked up that fateful January that I've forgotten how it is to take the future seriously, for a change. Every time I think about it I get blindly hopeful at first, then uncertain, but ultimately it just leaves me with a huge sense of dread.
I'm not sure I can do this. I'm not at all sure I can do this. And I'm scared shitless of the day when so much of what has kept me going through the past three years falls apart, and I'll have no one to blame but myself.
How in the world am I supposed to keep it together.
I'm not sure I can do this. I'm not at all sure I can do this. And I'm scared shitless of the day when so much of what has kept me going through the past three years falls apart, and I'll have no one to blame but myself.
How in the world am I supposed to keep it together.