yeah..
so life is in one of those long phases where everything is just dead.. i dont know if i should be happy but im not to happy with life right now... its ok.. i just feel empty. music is going well.. two of my songs are being used in a film.. i may be going on tour for two months with a major label and two of its bands.. id be the opening act.. we will see they asked me to send in material this week.. i got a record contract from statue that i turned down... just didnt fit me but things are happening with music so for that im thankful for.. and im now being played on a radio station in france.. so that kinda kool... on the other hand im having a hard time with my relationship.. i love lindsey to death but things are a struggle. and from day to day my mind changes and i just cant deal with the past i cant seem to let go of.. i want to be cut off from emotion and stop caring. i work to much again... and blah blah blah.. i still hate this thing... some friends came over the other day and that was good like old times. i miss having friends i see on a regular basis.. right now i just feel lonely... goodnight..