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Guys, I'm sorry for the confusion. I suppose I assumed people already knew.
Becki, or arduinna died Tuesday morning. She was on her way to work, a job she hated and was planning to quit soon, and she was hit by a tractor trailer. As many of you know, Becki had miscarried a while back, gotten married to Erich, and became pregnant again. She was 6 months pregnant with a little girl they'd named Mackenzie.
Nothing about this entire situation makes any sense. It just all seems like one huge impossible joke. Her husband is left with no wife, no impending baby girl. He was so excited-she used to tell me how he would talk to her stomach and poke the baby and sing to it, and now he's left with nothing but a new apartment with an empty baby's room, and an impending deployment to Iraq, with no one waiting at home for him.
She was such a part of my life. We RP'ed on Alala with so many characters...we were going to try to visit her in the summer. Jeff has goofy texts from her still saved in his cell phone. I use things everyday that she and Erich bought for us. She, Ellie, and I were going to have a Tarts and Tea party when we got together, dress up like hookers and drink tea (or more likely wine). She was going to be a bridesmaid at my wedding. Which of course, I never got the chance to ask her.
I've never felt like this before-I don't know how to make sense of it. No one close to me has ever really died. Every time I let myself think about it, there's a new heartbreaking angle to look at it from.
Becki, or arduinna died Tuesday morning. She was on her way to work, a job she hated and was planning to quit soon, and she was hit by a tractor trailer. As many of you know, Becki had miscarried a while back, gotten married to Erich, and became pregnant again. She was 6 months pregnant with a little girl they'd named Mackenzie.
Nothing about this entire situation makes any sense. It just all seems like one huge impossible joke. Her husband is left with no wife, no impending baby girl. He was so excited-she used to tell me how he would talk to her stomach and poke the baby and sing to it, and now he's left with nothing but a new apartment with an empty baby's room, and an impending deployment to Iraq, with no one waiting at home for him.
She was such a part of my life. We RP'ed on Alala with so many characters...we were going to try to visit her in the summer. Jeff has goofy texts from her still saved in his cell phone. I use things everyday that she and Erich bought for us. She, Ellie, and I were going to have a Tarts and Tea party when we got together, dress up like hookers and drink tea (or more likely wine). She was going to be a bridesmaid at my wedding. Which of course, I never got the chance to ask her.
I've never felt like this before-I don't know how to make sense of it. No one close to me has ever really died. Every time I let myself think about it, there's a new heartbreaking angle to look at it from.