...suck....
i hate feeling like shit, but for the past few days..that is the only feeling i seem to have...
i thought all my friends understood me, but they obvioulsy dont..they either take everything that i say way to seriuosly..or they dont even care what i have to say...and i thought that this month and part of next month would be a good time for me to be able to really open up to some people before i move..but it just seems like everyone is too busy for me..even just to listen..
i love my friends dearly...but i just seem to be drifting apart from soem of them..and i dotn think i am ready for this kind of change,.. im not ready to leave and i sure as hell am not ready for the last day when i have to say good-bye to the people that truely care about me...im just not ready for anything to change..
i seem to be figuring out that some of the relationships i have with peopl arent exactly heathly..for example.. hooking p with someone just because you need ass?... this hurts me to an extrem extent...this kid i have cared about for so long and i finally got over him and we werent takling and i was ok with it, he decides he needs to talk to me and ask if we can hook up..i enjoy his friendship like crazy, but this just isnt cool to me...i would like too hook up with him, but i would be letting down alot of other people by doing it..and i honestly am not sure if i want to get my heart broken once again..espeacilly before i move...
i am very sorry for taking up your time with me being so emo...ut i thought you all might love me enough to help me...ah, well..
i love you.. bye
i thought all my friends understood me, but they obvioulsy dont..they either take everything that i say way to seriuosly..or they dont even care what i have to say...and i thought that this month and part of next month would be a good time for me to be able to really open up to some people before i move..but it just seems like everyone is too busy for me..even just to listen..
i love my friends dearly...but i just seem to be drifting apart from soem of them..and i dotn think i am ready for this kind of change,.. im not ready to leave and i sure as hell am not ready for the last day when i have to say good-bye to the people that truely care about me...im just not ready for anything to change..
i seem to be figuring out that some of the relationships i have with peopl arent exactly heathly..for example.. hooking p with someone just because you need ass?... this hurts me to an extrem extent...this kid i have cared about for so long and i finally got over him and we werent takling and i was ok with it, he decides he needs to talk to me and ask if we can hook up..i enjoy his friendship like crazy, but this just isnt cool to me...i would like too hook up with him, but i would be letting down alot of other people by doing it..and i honestly am not sure if i want to get my heart broken once again..espeacilly before i move...
i am very sorry for taking up your time with me being so emo...ut i thought you all might love me enough to help me...ah, well..
i love you.. bye