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Truthfully I'm not entirely sure what I'm doing and not really sure what I'm going to write about today I just felt like I should try to write a bit thinking perhaps it would make things feel like they make a bit more sense.
I'm having trouble getting my head and heart into school at the moment. I thought I would feel more inspired once I started going but I'm not feeling it entirely though I am trying to get into it. I do enjoy the learning and feeling that I'm going towards something even if it's not entirely flowing right now. I still need to find a job but haven't done much to find one I try fail then just feel out of it not really sure what I'm doing. Really there is something lacking inside at the moment. I'm thinking of seeing if the school has free therapy or something as I'm pretty sure I'm stuck in a depression that I need help getting out of. I know I'm a bit of an asshole or selfish in these moments I don't want to see many people or talk to them. I can't even identify what brought the whole thing on other than existing ongoing issues from the past few years or just my whole life. I hate complaining about the past and not focusing on the present but sometimes I feel certain things linger.
I'm having trouble getting my head and heart into school at the moment. I thought I would feel more inspired once I started going but I'm not feeling it entirely though I am trying to get into it. I do enjoy the learning and feeling that I'm going towards something even if it's not entirely flowing right now. I still need to find a job but haven't done much to find one I try fail then just feel out of it not really sure what I'm doing. Really there is something lacking inside at the moment. I'm thinking of seeing if the school has free therapy or something as I'm pretty sure I'm stuck in a depression that I need help getting out of. I know I'm a bit of an asshole or selfish in these moments I don't want to see many people or talk to them. I can't even identify what brought the whole thing on other than existing ongoing issues from the past few years or just my whole life. I hate complaining about the past and not focusing on the present but sometimes I feel certain things linger.