let's blow this joint
"There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness. "
-Nietzsche
I like that quote for some reason that has nothing to do with what I am feeling currently though.
I want to go on a long long holiday. I want a vacation from my thoughts people I know and things that just always seem to occupy my mind. I want to just live in a land where I know nothing for a few months.... who knows maybe I would want to stay there.
I've been getting tired of drinking or the way it makes me feel. I've been tired of feeling depressed or full of anxiety because there is shit in life I have little idea how to deal with or don't see any resolution in the future. I'm tired of meeting people I like only to do something that causes things not to work out... I'm tired of being pissed at them then making it so even a friendship is difficult. I'm tired of feeling unable to relate to people.
It was fun saturday I went to some local show with Beth... i was in a funky mood so I drank probably more than I should of again. I dont' ever really act stupid other than wanting to hug people... I did fall in my chair breaking it though that sort of made me feel stupid. I don't know I'm tired of feeling only happy when I drink... I dont have a problem with drinking but I have a problem when it's the only time I can feel good or comfortable with things.
I do want to go away from things here for a while just so i can clear my head instead of being reminded of stupid things all the time. There are parts of me that want to run everytime things feel uncomfortable but there are parts of me that are trying to deal with things. I do hate that most people I come across just have little understandings of where I've come from or what I've dealt with... it's nice to have people who can understand or relate to things sometimes.
I
want
to
feel
like
this
is
going
somewhere
-Nietzsche
I like that quote for some reason that has nothing to do with what I am feeling currently though.
I want to go on a long long holiday. I want a vacation from my thoughts people I know and things that just always seem to occupy my mind. I want to just live in a land where I know nothing for a few months.... who knows maybe I would want to stay there.
I've been getting tired of drinking or the way it makes me feel. I've been tired of feeling depressed or full of anxiety because there is shit in life I have little idea how to deal with or don't see any resolution in the future. I'm tired of meeting people I like only to do something that causes things not to work out... I'm tired of being pissed at them then making it so even a friendship is difficult. I'm tired of feeling unable to relate to people.
It was fun saturday I went to some local show with Beth... i was in a funky mood so I drank probably more than I should of again. I dont' ever really act stupid other than wanting to hug people... I did fall in my chair breaking it though that sort of made me feel stupid. I don't know I'm tired of feeling only happy when I drink... I dont have a problem with drinking but I have a problem when it's the only time I can feel good or comfortable with things.
I do want to go away from things here for a while just so i can clear my head instead of being reminded of stupid things all the time. There are parts of me that want to run everytime things feel uncomfortable but there are parts of me that are trying to deal with things. I do hate that most people I come across just have little understandings of where I've come from or what I've dealt with... it's nice to have people who can understand or relate to things sometimes.
I
want
to
feel
like
this
is
going
somewhere