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[hopelessbreath]

today is kicking my ass.
actually this whole week..
month...
several months have.
i hope that i will be happy soon
i wish i could just fast forward
to where this wouldn't hurt.
but i can't.
so i just pretend to be ok,
and i'm a shoddy actor
so everyone asks if i'm ok
and i lie, and say yes
because i hate admitting that
my heart is breaking no matter what i do.