no.
work.. school... work... school...
i hate living this repititious life.. of knowing exactly how your day is going to start.. and exactly how its going to end.
im so tired of seeing the same faces..
the same people who smile to your face and then talk about you as soon as u turn away
im tired of being in this position.. where i constantly have to make sure to keep a right kind of profile
im tired of being expected to be a certain way
im tired of being told what to do
im tired of not being able to do anything about it
and im tired of people telling me i can when they dont know... theyre not in my position
i dont want to complain.
i hate complaining..
but its so hard not to when theres so much you just need to get out.
i feel like i cant really talk to anyone..
people pretend to care and listen but no one really gives a shit.
i know it.. you know it.
theres no point.. friendship isnt what it used to be..
people only care about themselves.. and thats a good thing..
but sometimes its good to stop and think about others too
the world doesnt revolve around one person
the world doesnt revolve around you.
u ever see how certain people will never come around..
until they need something from you?
and then u confront them..
and they act like youre crazy..
they act like theyve been there for you all along
all of a sudden theyre youre best friend again..
for a few days.
until they dont need you anymore..
and then wont come back until they need something else..
and the cycle keeps going.
right?
no.
not anymore.
i refuse to be someones doormat.
if im not good enough to be a permanant friend for you...
then all i have to say is..
FUCK YOU.
i dont want your friendship.. hell.. better yet..
you dont deserve my friendship.
i dont want someone pretending to be something or someone for me
not out of pity
not out of anything.
and then theres those people... who make you feel sorry for them just to get you to feel a certain way about them..
i used to fall for that.. so much
and those people know it.
im someone who always wants to help
i always wanna be there for someone who has a problem..
and even these "helpless" people.. use me.
they know exactly what gets to me...
they complain about things they know will melt me..
and i always end up on their side..
telling them im there for them
telling them they deserve better
telling them ide help anyway i could..
but when i need something.. when its ME who needs the help..
are they ever there?
no.
when its me crying myself to sleep at nights..
do they care?
no.
when i try to talk to them.. tell them how i feel and what i think about a certain situation im in..
do they wanna hear?
no.
the world only revolves around them.
"oh this happened to me"
"oh this person did this to me" "this person said that to me"
"oh im asking for help... tell me you care so i can feel better know i got someone to care for me.. even though i could care less about you"
right?
yeah.
i do care a lot about certain people.
i do however refuse to care about those who i know are pretending..lying about everything they say.
i want to be there for some people
i want to tell them i wish i could change they lives
i want to understand how they got to where they did..
i want to make their pain go away
but...
i also want someone to be there like that for me
dont just pretend to be.
look.. its simple.. all i ask is.. that people who read this.. and think that you are someone i am reffering to.. just stay away. i dont wanna hear it.. and i dont want your pity. i didnt write all this so someone could read it and be like "awww... im sorry that happened to you.. yeah.. people are like that" i know people are like that.. i just spent 10 minutes writing about people like that.. and if u read this.. and not a single thought goes through your head about being someone i described in all of this.. then u are a friend.. and none of this relates to you. its hard to explain how i really mean all this.. if you are someone who took offense.. well... i dont give a shit. cuz the only people who should take offense.. are those it refers to.
im going to work.
wonderful.
i hate living this repititious life.. of knowing exactly how your day is going to start.. and exactly how its going to end.
im so tired of seeing the same faces..
the same people who smile to your face and then talk about you as soon as u turn away
im tired of being in this position.. where i constantly have to make sure to keep a right kind of profile
im tired of being expected to be a certain way
im tired of being told what to do
im tired of not being able to do anything about it
and im tired of people telling me i can when they dont know... theyre not in my position
i dont want to complain.
i hate complaining..
but its so hard not to when theres so much you just need to get out.
i feel like i cant really talk to anyone..
people pretend to care and listen but no one really gives a shit.
i know it.. you know it.
theres no point.. friendship isnt what it used to be..
people only care about themselves.. and thats a good thing..
but sometimes its good to stop and think about others too
the world doesnt revolve around one person
the world doesnt revolve around you.
u ever see how certain people will never come around..
until they need something from you?
and then u confront them..
and they act like youre crazy..
they act like theyve been there for you all along
all of a sudden theyre youre best friend again..
for a few days.
until they dont need you anymore..
and then wont come back until they need something else..
and the cycle keeps going.
right?
no.
not anymore.
i refuse to be someones doormat.
if im not good enough to be a permanant friend for you...
then all i have to say is..
FUCK YOU.
i dont want your friendship.. hell.. better yet..
you dont deserve my friendship.
i dont want someone pretending to be something or someone for me
not out of pity
not out of anything.
and then theres those people... who make you feel sorry for them just to get you to feel a certain way about them..
i used to fall for that.. so much
and those people know it.
im someone who always wants to help
i always wanna be there for someone who has a problem..
and even these "helpless" people.. use me.
they know exactly what gets to me...
they complain about things they know will melt me..
and i always end up on their side..
telling them im there for them
telling them they deserve better
telling them ide help anyway i could..
but when i need something.. when its ME who needs the help..
are they ever there?
no.
when its me crying myself to sleep at nights..
do they care?
no.
when i try to talk to them.. tell them how i feel and what i think about a certain situation im in..
do they wanna hear?
no.
the world only revolves around them.
"oh this happened to me"
"oh this person did this to me" "this person said that to me"
"oh im asking for help... tell me you care so i can feel better know i got someone to care for me.. even though i could care less about you"
right?
yeah.
i do care a lot about certain people.
i do however refuse to care about those who i know are pretending..lying about everything they say.
i want to be there for some people
i want to tell them i wish i could change they lives
i want to understand how they got to where they did..
i want to make their pain go away
but...
i also want someone to be there like that for me
dont just pretend to be.
look.. its simple.. all i ask is.. that people who read this.. and think that you are someone i am reffering to.. just stay away. i dont wanna hear it.. and i dont want your pity. i didnt write all this so someone could read it and be like "awww... im sorry that happened to you.. yeah.. people are like that" i know people are like that.. i just spent 10 minutes writing about people like that.. and if u read this.. and not a single thought goes through your head about being someone i described in all of this.. then u are a friend.. and none of this relates to you. its hard to explain how i really mean all this.. if you are someone who took offense.. well... i dont give a shit. cuz the only people who should take offense.. are those it refers to.
im going to work.
wonderful.