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people tell me to be optimistic about situations.. to not jump to conclusions.. to be open minded.. and so something happens to me.. i meet someone and i become everything that i was told to be. i let myself be vulnerable.. i open up to someone.. i let them see me.. the real me.. and what happens? i feel like someone stuck a knife right through my heart.
i deserve it. i shouldnt listen to what people say.. i should do it my way. i should forget everything that i used to dream of when i was younger.. of ending up with someone who actually gives a shit. someone who pretended to be something they werent.. or atleast thats how i see it.. they dont seem like they care what happens.. i guess you were right.. you are able to let go.. forget.. really fast. i just wish i knew why..
im so upset i cant concentrate on anything.. i just.. dont know what to do. i spent the night crying, watching the movie you gave me to watch, looking at my phone every second wishing it would ring.. and waking up every 10 minutes.. hoping that maybe i could wake up from a nightmare.
i hate myself. :(
u made me hate everything about me.
i deserve it. i shouldnt listen to what people say.. i should do it my way. i should forget everything that i used to dream of when i was younger.. of ending up with someone who actually gives a shit. someone who pretended to be something they werent.. or atleast thats how i see it.. they dont seem like they care what happens.. i guess you were right.. you are able to let go.. forget.. really fast. i just wish i knew why..
im so upset i cant concentrate on anything.. i just.. dont know what to do. i spent the night crying, watching the movie you gave me to watch, looking at my phone every second wishing it would ring.. and waking up every 10 minutes.. hoping that maybe i could wake up from a nightmare.
i hate myself. :(
u made me hate everything about me.